Thursday, July 08, 2010 @11:03 PM
just before i sleep...
its not intentional but i seem to have gone on another hiatus even though i said i would reflect more, even though i got myself a brand new laptop. i haven't even been playing any games :(
work has been busy. pay no increase but workload always does. like, what else is new right? then when its not work, the remaining of my time is spent with jason or my family. and getting sleep. without sleep i just cannot function. almost resorted to coffee but everytime i think about how it might stain my teeth and i stand firm to go without it. 1 more year of braces to go.
*internally roots for self*
so anyway, summary of updates:
my birthday came and went. just a simple celebration, i'm thankful i had at least that much and i shall not blog about all the crap that happened at work while i was on leave for my birthday. i'm just glad
thats over.
next, heard of the BTO project at punggol lately? the one thats all over the news and freakingly over-suscribed? well, we're one of the couples that applied too. within me, i'm not sure how to react, because jason doesn't have much reaction either. so i have been controlling the crazy me inside that is wondering all ten thousand questions... like is this really happening? what if we get the flat? are you serious about getting the flat? will you propose? will we have enough money? what am i going to say to my parents? have you told your parents? and SO MANY more. this is just to name a few ._.
i really can't help it!! which girl wouldn't be anxious and excited on this prospect? which girl wouldn't need reassurance and comfort that the chain of events are not an act of impulse but one that is thoughfully planned? i can only pray that time will tell. and perhaps when it does, it wouldn't be too late.
anyways, back to reflection... the world cup is coming to an end already. germany should win lor! :( spain really tyco! sigh, but cannot change what has already happened... i believe germany will be even better in the next world cup!! and by then i'll wear their jersey & support! :3
last but not least, i've been thinking about going for lasik. i'm very scared. so scared i try not to think about it. but strangely i think i feel more worried that i'm not suitable for the procedure. cos like if my eyes are not suitable, all hope is lost already. if my eyes are suitable, at least i have a choice whether to go or not to go for the op. i wouldn't feel pushed to this spot if it wasn't for the fact that my eyes have started to reject contact lens wear. thankfully i can still wear dailies but i don't want to be in this situation forever. i mean, its a good thing that my eyes reject contact lens too. that way i'm being 'forced' to make this decision sooner... and if i really get the procedure done, i'll enjoy being lens-free for more years before i get 'lau hua'.
cross my fingers, eyes and heart in the next few months to come. i need some luck, enlightenment and miracles. night world.