Friday, March 23, 2007 @2:44 PM
stirr..
ever had that feeling of tightness and stress that seems to strangle your mind as though it was some kind of rubber? its really damn tense! perhaps i'm not even describing it correctly.. oh whatever.
this week's been pretty fulfilling.. i think. just that i feel like i totally lack a good amount of sleep.. which is probably why i feel like i've aged somewhat. skin dryness.. bloatedness..
though strangely i feel that i've lost weight. hmm.. logically speaking that should only happen when i have got tonnes of good sleep. yes sleeping makes you lose weight. alex can eat a bull and forever remain skinny cos he sleeps like 10 hours a day. that pig! sigh, i wish my life could be like that. very tiring you know? coming to work feeling sleepy.. and feeling more sleepy after lunching. i've got to change my sleeping habits! i wanted to reach work early.. so i woke up at 6.30am but reach work at 9am.. on normal days, i would have woken up at 7.30am and reached work by 9.30am..
i feel like the extra hour of sleep is more justifiable for being 30mins late. hmmm...
oh wells.. i'm just glad to finally be able to go swimming later tonight. its gonna be at the united colleage of south east asia. (sounds like machiam so far away right? actually just its near dover mrt) a charity event that sentosa have contributed fundings for so there's a lane given to sentosa.. so i'm there to show some support and well, to fulfill my own desires..? haha, sounds abit wrong..
my only regret is not being able to play majong with alex and his colleagues tonight. so exciting to know they're gonna play throughout the night and straight on till morning! well even if i went i know my mom won't allow me to stay till morning.. so i might as well swim for a good cause right?
hmm.. also read ai ning's blog that she gonna go for hospi tourism industry.. whee~ got another convert.. lols. still can remember meeting her and keong at vivo.. and yes.. i dunno why i went alone.. kind of ought to be shot cos its dangerous, i should not be so trusting etc etc..
deep down i still want to believe the good in others. that its possible to make true friends from the net. alex never could understand why i like meeting people from the net. he keeps stating example of the 'classes' of his friends who do that and those who don't. frankly i just do.. really got no logical reason behind it.
to date, i think i've met perhaps close to or more than 50 people through the net. scary? not really.. though initially i was nervous.. things just got better somehow. regrets? well yes there are some people i really wish till date i never met or came across. but well.. these are just experiences you learn and grow with.
kudos to one of the 13 year old boy who came out for a guild gathering.. which his parents consented! goodness my mom should learn from them la.. oh yea, i haven't mentioned.. my mom knows nothing of my meetings.. hah! talk about being rebellous.. i just don't want her to worry too much.
so anyways, back to ningie's blog.. must reflect.. maybe i shared too much crap and she got enlightened. and then what she post in her blog is actually enlightening me? is events really my dream? i love helping people in the ways that i can and making them smile is the best satisfaction!
gahh.. train of thoughts been cut short because of work. will get back to topic laters. ahhhh
Monday, March 19, 2007 @5:11 AM
crossroads
it been awhile!
sorry if there's anyone who reads my blog about the lack of updates.. too many stuffs to do beside blogging.. or perhaps thats why i'm in such a state now. no blog = less time spend to reflect on decisions and what happened. i think i've got like too much data in my head and the stress comes from being afraid that i'll forget something important.
some updates..
had a short but rather nice chat with kc at imbiah about me furthering my studies. advice that made me think.. i do believe it was the first time i had such a long conversation with him. lol, really never had a chance to know him despite hearing from others how good a boss he had been. in my heart i just know he is too, just that i got no testimonials.. really didn't expect jen to tell him about me (i think thats how he knows abt my plans). wonder how's she doing ler.. never update blog also one..
*sighs* miss the old sales team la.. the area is really so quiet now.. and to think i was only left with a chair to seat on when i first joined.. no table, no com or laptop lor.. so squeezy that time.. then now all move separate ways.. and irin is in korea le ba.. waiting for her blog to open.. den can open my eyes to korea thru her too.. :D
sentosa dnd on 16th march... sarks! *sigh* my osim chair.... over 600 ppl invited, and only like 30+ prizes for lucky draw? its sad i tell you. and the 'entertainment' was so typical family day or corporate dnd style. i think the real entertainment came from watching how dressed up others were. especially jafar.. i bet he cosplay alot.. the fake parrot and the way he walk with his stick.. actually come to think of it, i don't think his costume is arabian lor?? hahaha..
den on sat.. after getting myself high on alcohol.. and having a hangover in church sermon.. and a loney trip to suntec to get more brochures on studying in aussie.... i won a 1GB creative vplus mp3 player from doing an online survey! hahaha! the luck.. though i still wished i had the osim chair...
so anyway, back to work related topics, fark!! another batch of 150 indians want to do imbiah challenge. and of all days, it had to be april 6th. GOOD FRIDAY... gosh... public holiday also make me work.. oh yea reminds me.. while wondering where to buy some accessories for dnd someone suggested going to mustafa in little india.. and i went like "NOOO!!! I hate indians, they're so scary!!!" (please pardon me because i had a very horrible encounter with 200 of them on the same day.. or maybe its the day before..) and Sess just SO happened to pass by.in my head it was like 'SHIT'. azlin, siti and i dunno who else was there was looking at him and he was staring at me with eyes so big i was wondering when his eyeballs would pop out and roll on the floor.
i know, i know, i made a very racist remark... but i'm honest ok... i AM afraid of seeing too many indians.. they DO scare me.. so.. haha, i hope sess don't take it too heart.
am pretty sure i'll go aussie to get my degree. my only concerns are:
- money$$
- alex
- the people there
- my future career
to each of the things i dwell and can further branch out questions and problems i'm worried over.. so yea, i'll just have to keep praying about it.
and a few thoughts that keep straying into my head:
- to do events or tourism?
- setting up a wedding planner firm (i even wrote down notes & fantasize working with jo, sylvester n layling)
- multimedia design & communications
- social sciences
haiz, later need to see dentist... am terrified.. too many thoughts wondering in my head.. and with less than 5 hours to my dental appointment... gosh i better got some zzz...
Sunday, March 04, 2007 @3:55 PM
exhausted
there is alot of work to be done.
too many things in my head.. and i can just imagine the bulky cluster of junk causing the throbbing pain.. sigh, i need some time alone for rest, sorting and rejuvenation.
got to get things done! *tries to be determined*
well, off i go for work..