Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @10:18 PM
life ain't fair
i'm so tired.
i'm working late and this time i can't take off-in-lieu to make up for it. there's just too much work to do. and carrying my 3kg working laptop sucks because it'll just drain every freaking drop of energy left in me and i'll be too tired when i get home to do anything anyway.
actually, i'm so tired i was about to just go wash up and head to bed. but my mom had to come into my room to disturb me. she always 'visits' when jason is not around me and pops up all kinds of crap. this time she showed me her credit card bill and asked why she has to pay interest, again. yes, its the second time. after looking through the whole statement and analyzing for 10 mins i finally found the reason. generally, she paid her bills late. so there's interest! duh.
called and got an approval for wavier? yea that was for the
last bill. so yea, since u're always so free at home, why don't u just call again and see if u can get another wavier? save ten bucks. THEN u know what, i saw one of her spendings... at OG.. about $700+! so i asked what she bought, and she said clothes.
i'm like, WOAhh!! and she said it was for 5 tops. i'm like wow its so expensive! then she got all defensive on me like its somehow my fault that its expensive. she asked how much is my current top (fyi bought by jason at g2000 for $23) and i told her the original price before discount is $39 and then she CUT me in and said WAAA!!
what the FISH? i told her eh yours is $700+ leh! then she say its for 5 pieces. then when i rebutted how 5 pieces of mine will only amount to alittle over $100, she started to tear on me!?
what the FREAKING FISH?!?!?? i don't even have $700 in my bank account now, i have to scringe and save for everything i wanna buy (like, all my clothes are either discounted, cheap buys or bought by jason) and here she is BLAMING me for making noise that she bought clothes for herself??
i feel like puking blood. i feel so FREAKING poor. stressed and tired from working so tired to have to go home and face this shit. after the teary episode she can still come in 5 mins later to ask me if the holiday deal from UOB to taiwan is good. its like, re-emphasizing hoe MUCH money she has, and how LITTLE i have. she can pull such a LONG face when i wanna go phuket and my lodging and airfare amounts to $360. but then it seems almost totally fine for her to spend over $1000 to go to china or taiwan?
someone just give me a lethal dose and kill me. i hate myself for hating her but i just can't stop hating her. argh...
Wednesday, January 20, 2010 @11:45 PM
new post or double job?
i've just started my new role just a couple days back, in quality assurance.. and work just keeps coming in! there's quite alot of things to do, that needs to be done... and the dateline isn't exactly very far away either.
needless to say, i
am rather stressed, but i think i'm taking it in pretty well so far. like, at least i'm not slapping myself when i can't really remember the exact points for criterion 1 to 6 of the edutrust guidance document. at least, vincent has been really nice as a boss to me as well, not expecting me to memorise them, but just familiarize myself with it... together with another bunch of other documents...
so i'm really grateful, yet at the same time because he's nice, i don't want to let him down either... i really want to be able to finish going through the documents and then going through the iso and people developer files that we have, so i can better contribute to the edutrust documents for submission due in the 1st week of march (if i'm not wrong).
and i'm also grateful he wants to rope me in for the internal assessment so that i can get more hands on experience in such a short time. which is, by the way, happening just next week. which is like... omg, cos after the week-long assessment, it'll be the end of jan. and then in feb, there's like the new year hols where my leave isn't secured (since everything is so pressing) and then there's the 3 days of consecutive full shifts i might have to do... talk about ultimate shagness!
pray to god that i get a pay rise. someone in the company PLEASE TELL ME i've got a payrise coming!!! ugh... don't know the system in the company even though i've been here for almost a year.. and no one seems to be saying anything.
life's just gonna get busier. ._.