Monday, March 30, 2009 @9:59 PM
marriage
am suddenly intrigued by the 9pm show on married housewives and their woes. i've been watching that show on and off for the past couple of weeks and what surprises me is how i can actually relate to some of them.
the aunty-ish traits and kiasu'ness is just really some of the traits that makes us singaporean no? the issues they face are so real it actually scares me. i used to have a bf that was a gambler. used to have one that would buy me gifts n make me happy (then again, which doesn't? mm...), used to have a fling that couldn't make up his mind.
gosh, had i married any of them, wouldn't i be like a life example of the drama? i know, i know, its just a tv drama... but i just had this smacked in the face kind of feeling as i just watch the tv.
girls just need a guy that can support them. someone that is confident, reasonable and strong-willed.. someone that's trustworthy and reliable for them to confide and trust. is it really that hard?
okay i'm not condemning all men out there. don't get me wrong... i'm just feeling alittle indignant for a sizeable number of girls out there because there IS a sizeable amount of guys who can't make up their minds, are fickle and indecisive.
then again i do understand that its not so easy. guys are also human and sometimes as girls, we just have too much expectations that are just not easy to meet.. actually, there are also some girls that are like that... hmm... its really not easy for 2 people to meet, mutually fall in love, to date, and to marry..
when i log into facebook, i never fail to still feel surprized to see my secondary school mate's wedding photos. are those her kids? i can't imagine the financial strain, the stress, the pain... and it doesn't make the image any better as i'm still halfway thru watching 'the pursuit of happyness'. it makes me torn to want to get married, and wanting to stay in dating stage forever.
sometimes when too much thoughts flood in, you just got to remind yourselves to forget everything and just take each day as they come. as the saying goes, don't worry about tomorrow, there's enough worries today, so leave tomorrow's worries for tomorrow. well, it sounded something like that lah. haha..
and just this morning jason said i'm not a good strategist. and i totally agree.. i'm more of a worrywart. i like to believe in the good in people and i wish people would just be kind and nice to each other. that way, the world would be a better place to live in... at least, to the person you've been nice to.
sigh, i think my thoughts are still alittle overcrowded. really haven't blogged for too long... tune in for more ramblings~ haa... its funny how my work ain't really that strenuous, and yet i still feel drained. anyhows, thank god for the day, thank god for my poor memory. pray for tmr's orientation & bii's interview!
love u :)
Wednesday, March 18, 2009 @10:22 PM
goodbye goodbye
yesterday i dreamt that i was a smoker. like, i could feel myself smoking and i really got a 'high' on it. strange huh?
haven't had the time to sit down and just blog. like, there's been too many things going on and happening in my life now. i'm going out everyday and returning home only to get what little rest i can.. before going out again. mainly its work that drains my life outta me. then there's bii, my fam, church and.... facebook?
haha, its a strange addiction. u know, the brainless kind i'm always attracted to. mafia wars, pet society, parking wars, guitar heros, spot the difference, and the list goes on...
i just go in, click click click and then stone and wait for it to refresh...
as if my brain is not dead enough, i actually miss my couch potato life... i'm totally envious of jason being jobless, even tho i also know thats not exactly a good thing. :(