the days pass by like a whirl. and suddenly the holidays seem much shorter. so much shorter.. its really not enough!! i have barely finished a single anime collection i borrowed from yi ling. sigh..

at least i do look forward to having color and composition for my cds. its what i've whated ever since i started school. and i'm really starting to wonder what i want in life. my career.. went for a little shopping with leigh after some lunch before the gym, and i saw this laminated card that said "happiness - do what you love to do and you don't have to work for life" is this really true?

well, after gyming n parting with leigh, i met delong and robin.. and we walked all the way from california fitness to 1 camden medical center. trust me, its far. very far. just think, before we set off, the sky was still bright. when we got there, its nightfall. but the ambience of the restaurent was really nice and romantic.

after consulting delong, robin and my mom, i finally decided to give the manager a call. i still don't really like his attitude (cos it sounds so intimidating and unfriendly) but i really do have to give credit for the indescribable air of confidence that somehow seems to be telling me that "yah, i made it big". i don't know if its a good thing or a bad one, for him to have that attitude. maybe its because of his work? who knows.. will have to see him in person when i go down again on tuesday for my interview.

the down side? i'm still not very familiar with the place. will have to check on the mini guide book of bus routes. transportation will be a killer. and the expected pay per hour just decreased from 7 to 6.

*sigh*

ah well, as mom says, its for the experience. if i don't like it... ^^

i'm still hearing the music in my head.. the heartache still so raw.
i can even feel the dried tears, stained on my cheeks.

its a feeling i know will subside soon, but so much emotions.. all mixed up, i can't put to words.. to describe it. just can't help feeling sad.

as i try to comprehend it with reality... i feel so weak.

i hate living.

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久美子 Kumiko
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its 3am.. and i still feel like puking, yet somehow, i feel unable to puke.. bleahx, its like the hangover i felt over at bangkok. the only difference is, i haven't had any alcohol!

sheesh.. i couldn't have been the rum and rasin truffle cake i had at coffee club.. could it? my gut tells me that its because of the mixture or cookies and cream milkshake, banana milkshake, chocolate and vanilla ice-cream, a tinge of butterscotch, water and the iced mocha and vanilla, after the process of a 1 hour bus ride making me feel queesy.

frankly, i've never had so much cream, sugar and milk in pratically all my drinks in one day before. did i say bleahx?

but today was a really enjoyable day meeting the tuk tuk gang and having lunch at billy bombers. chatted, shared jokes, played games and took some really great pics throughout.it was so fun~

left them to rush to somerset to meet leigh for our workout. felt like i had chicken arms and feet when i got on the cross trainer and some of the other machines! took some time to get warmed up and had a pretty good workout. i felt the instant results the moment i wore my razor-back top again after a bath.

then again, after dinner at the food court and having coffee and desserts at the coffee club.. haha, all was lost. i can't wait to go back for another session to lose the fats!

who? its amelia and amos.. my beloved godbrother and sister who are flying to taiwan this sunday T-T they're so much more than friends to me.. like such nice people and good company... i'll miss em loads. though its not like they're not coming back, just the thought that they're not in singapore makes them feel so much more distant.. so far.

went out to meet amelia and steve in the morning and we had burger king for breakfast. the second time i felt like pinching myself for forgetting to bring the coupons. the first was at the airport before i flew to bangkok.

anyway, after that, we basically combed the entire tampines mall and century square. help amelia choose and buy new flip flops and we were practically walking into almost every clothes shop. chatting away, i pretty much dragged amelia to get her eye-brows trimmed and nagged steve till he finally gave in and went to cut his hair (though it turned out with the same style, just alittle shorter and neater).

its amazing how we got together, all four of us. amelia n amos are brothers and sisters, but the special thing, is that their mom was my former secondary 4 teacher. whereas steve was amos's best friend. i totally didn't belong in the picture. but some miraculously similar events brought me togerther with them. we'll it all happened both while i was abroad, and both occasions were when i got tipsy over drinking alcohol. 1st it was me, amelia and amos in japan, as i drowned my sorrows on asahi beer and who else but them who were there to comfort me. then at the bangkok trip, i somewhat grew closer to steve cos he took care of me as i drank (again) absolute vodka. somehow its seems more complicated though i'm making it sound as if it isn't. haha

had dinner at the v8 restaurant in bugis after i parted with them. and goodness, i'm starting to love every meal i have there~ well, minus the drinks.. if only they had some lessons from billy bombers...

well, i got home still awed by the food that i told my mom about it and and i promised that i'll bring her there to eat one day~ pray that i don't live to regret that promise. =x

for now though, i'm just dying to open the wrappers to read the new released comic series of naruto, and a special edition delong bought for me! the only sad thing is, he took away the ps2 T-T and i was still only half way through playing final fantasy x-2. *sobs* someone please lead me a ps2...

ah well, shall just look forward to meeting the tuk tuk gang for lunch, followed by gyming with leigh! oh, its so exciting. XD

was so tired i slept for 14 hours straight. didn't realise i missed my own bed so badly.. i wanted to sleep even more, till i realise it was 5pm. delong was not happy.. as i expected. got like 9 missed calls when i finally found my hp outside my own bedroom. and i couldn't rush out cos my mom wanted me to stay home. unpacking my stuff and the drizzle thats going on outside felt like an excuse from my mom. somehow i felt that she just missed me and didn't want me to go out since i only came back late at night the day before. so i spent the day unpacking.. tidying my room.. and doing the laundry with her. guess the one year and 2 months anniversary will have to be postponed..

well, the trip was definately unforgetable.
day 1
reached the airport to see the place flooded with ppl in orange. and i thought i was early. had lunch at burger king with the tuk tuk gang (not named then). my parents didn't wait to see me check in, so i was really thankful to have the guys for company. we had like, so much time.. and so.. we took loads of photos! posing with the weirdest things. haha, can't wait to get them after they're uploaded! we even played on the horizontal escalators inside. actually, it was just me and bernard. ming hao helped set a timer on the camera and we posed there while the escalator moved.. waiting silly for the flash to come. i was pretty estatic. haha, memories of playing on the escalator flooded me and bernard's company added it to be all the more heartwarming.

well, we all got seperated on the plane. but the flight wasn't so bad. the air stewardress was pretty hyper. sang a total of three songs for us, even the pilot cracked a joke. it was a totally new experience. did i mention that i had the window seat? totally cool~ XD

reached bangkok and we were sent to the hotel on a bus. the guide was funny with his thai accent, but erm, due to my short term memory, i can't remember much. then it was dinner and checking into the hotel rooms.

there was some time before lights out.. and though i didn't feel too good, there was like a whole bunch of ppl sneaking out to the night markets for shopping! so i joined eng koon, kenny and kai ting and we were off on a cab! i love shopping.. but i was also kinda scared to get myself lost in a foreign land.. what do i do? i grabbed kai ting's hands ^^" i wonder if passer-bys thought we were les.. anyway, i did manage to do some shopping.. in fact, the most among the four of us. haha, and to think i was the one who was abit reluctant to go in the beginning.

day 2
got up early in the morning for breakfast and awaited for more seminars from minsters and the ambassodor of thailand from singapore. it really wasn't so bad. then there was tea.. and lunch.. and discussions.. which brings the start of the viscious cycle of eat, listen to talks, eat, discussion, eat, debrief, eat, shopping.. etc. i felt so fat without working out. missed leigh immediately. haha

well, turned out that even the coordinator couldn't stop the students and facilitators from shopping.. and decided to help "organise" it. and no doubt, i did more shopping! sounds like i bought alot of stuff? actually i didn't.. i was pretty picky since i only had 2700 bahts to spare. got some really good bargains cos i thought so much when i was about to spend money ^^ i bought things that i needed and not out of haste.

when we got back to the hotel, everyone crashed in to marilyn's bedroom and played true or dare. it was pretty fun~ and after the games when some of them were tired, i chatted abit with ming hao till marilyn came back. all the guys left and i continued to chat with marilyn till late.

day 3
needless to say, with so little sleep, i slept through the whole informal presentation of our polyforum sub teams and a few naps here and there. but that 1 to 2 hours of sleep got me energised for the rest of the day. had the chance to interact with a thai called love and we evn took group pics with the thais students.

then came social nite. the event rocks. i screamed my lungs out. something i haven't done in my entire life. and i wasn't alone.. in the screaming! haha, everyone enjoyed themselves. and well, since it was the last night, i thought i might drink abit. ming hao and steve joined me and we sat at the corridors chatting and drinking since the room was so filled with smoke i really couldn't breathe. since we drank jim bean and absolute vodka raw, without the coke and sprite, it didn't take too long for both ming hao and me to loose control. ming hao was totally drunk, but i was still aware of the things happening around me. sober in the sense that i could walk straight and answer questions when directed to me. but somehow i was really sleepy.. so, next ting i knew, after i puked abit, steve (who didn't drink) helped me, along with a few others from different polys to someone else's bed. i even felt some one's handkerchief on my forehead. i only had to look at the design and know it belonged to a guy. haha, definately troubled quite a number of guys that day. and one of them even looked like my old flame.. i couldn't help noticing the striking difference..

day 4
anyway, i missed the debriefing and it somehow seemed like the whole world knew i drank. i felt like i was in really deep trouble. especially remembering that i saw kyle walk into my room, and storming out in a few seconds. somehow i've always felt discriminated by him cos i'm not some distincition student. its a long story. anyway, i slept in and out thru the educational tour, and puked a couple of times at the shopping center. really appriciate kai ting for accompanying me throughout. i only ate something when i finally got the the airport in thailand. somehow i had this strange craving for hot soup. sadly there wasn't any cafe or cafeteria that had any. ended up buying cup noodles, but it was sufficient to last me throughout. i guess that one day without much food helped me lose some weight.

felt so happy to be back in singapore.. then i realised i forgot to bring out my wallet from my luggage. and i had to buy alcoholic drinks for my mom and dad. thankfully, i had the help of bernard, lionel and a flight friend. paid them all back the moment i got my luggage at the belt. mom nagged abit about me forgetting to bring out my wallet.. but i couldn't tell her i was suffering from a hangover right? haha, miss the guys already.. they made the trip really much more enjoyable. can't wait to meet them all for lunch on tues!

in my train of thoughts...
as always.

tired.

cramps..

special things that happened today? watched the incredibles with jeremy at lido.. finally found a formal skirt to bring for my trip to bangkok at g2000. will buy it tomorrow with mom.

had tapanyaki for dinner, a classical cheesecake at coffee bean for dessert, and a long talk with delong. felt like i got half the burden off my chest. sorted out some things, will think of the rest tomorrow.

thats about it.. time for bed. pillows and bedsheets are calling.

just got home not too long ago, and strangely.. i don't feel tired. but more overwhelmed that i still have so much to do with so little time.

ah, yes and i got this new resolution.. was watching tv mobile and i saw the brazillian model acting in taxi that i thought was so soo hot. i don't understand how delong didn't swoon over her after the movie we watched. i don't know why, but i had the sudden urge to go to brazil. was day-dreaming on the whole bus ride home. cos it reminded me of my old resolution to go to spain for a romantic honeymoon. yeah, i was dreaming from one to another.. and in no time, i was home! amazing huh?

haha, earlier in the day, i had breakfast with my parents at bedok interchange.. something i really haven't done in a long time. it wasn't really that bad, except for the early morning nag from my mom, to my dad. i just thank god it wasn't me. she can sometimes say the worst of things you'd never want to hear. insults and all, i think my dad's the only one who can stand her.

anyway, i guess i had abit too much. haven't been much of a breakfast person lately with all the sleeping i've done.. so working out at the gym wasn't as satisfying as before. not to mention the fact that we didn't manage to catch a session of body combat, i thought my day was quite screwed. thankfully though, the last minute movie call from jeremy gave me something to look forward to.

he gave me a shock when he said he got my whole day planned out. watching the forgotten at 3.25, the incredibles at 5.30, and final fantasy x at his place till night. talk about last minute major movie marathon! i was really excited, but sadly the tics to the incredibles was sold till the last two rows. knowing that i'd suffer a bad headache sitting within the first four rows i told remy that we shouldn't catch it.

at least we caught the forgotten, a show that gave me quite a number of heart attacks with the loud sound effects. i can't pin-point if its the fault of the theater or the show itself. though the producer of the same movie created the sixth sense, i enjoyed the latter more. the forgotten reminded more of the sign. alien abduction movies of the english genre have yet to impress me much. i was so tempted to check out dollmaster since i heard such a good review from verna and jolyn. maybe someday...

oh, then i went straight to remy's place. the "movie" was 8 vcds long. goodness. i had to borrow 6 back since it was getting late and i only finished 2. now, back at home.. i wish i had more time to do everything! i still got a bag full of more anime from yi ling!! i think i need at least 3 full days to finish watching everything. arghz, someone push the date of the day school reopens!!

just came back from dinner at sharu's place. wasn't really as elaborated as i expected, but still cosy. the house was pretty plain and simple, with some decoratives hanging around. by the time i got there, most of the people were just sitting around, chatting and watching tv. it's almost like chinese new year.. minus the majong, black jack, and well, chinese faces.

stayed to watch the singapore idol and as me and the crowd expected, daphne got out. my friends concluded, that judging by talent, olinda would win. but popularity wise, maybe slyvester. taufik really has improved alot, but i don't know.. doesn't give me the x factor feeling. maybe more like your average good buddy kind of guy? but oh well, i'm just a bystander. i salute whoever wins cos i know all of them put in alot of effort. cheers~

on jia wei's car home, we suddenly got on to the topic of his sister. her job and all.. how she lives her life. and i thought to myself.. that yeah, that's what mine should be like. working shifts isn't a problem.. i don't even mind being on stand-by when the pay gets better. and going on holidays with my friends for 1 or 2 months when the opportunity comes by. its like, wow. though its singlehood, but its living life to the max, with shopping spree and going overseas at your own will.

but that doesn't mean i don't want to settle down. in fact, i still do find myself very dependent on people sometimes.. can't seem to be totally independent as hard as i try to. horoscope wise, its my dream to settle down and be a housewife. its like my nature. and life would be almost perfect if prince charming would sweep me off work, root me to the house, say he wants me to quit my job and he'll take care of me forever.

haha.. reminds me of what chris's dad said to his mom. i wondered if i would have fallen in love with his dad when chris was telling me about it over lunch. strangly, i seem to like guys who are alittle dominative. not to the extent of being a true blue mcp, but well, strong enough to support the family and mature enough to give me some sense of security.

but then again.. thats being selfish cos that's what i want. and i usually don't know what others want.. which makes me self-centered? guilty as charged.. i don't feel fit to be loved.

career path? here i come.

true love last forever. if u ever love someone but do not get back the same amount, don't feel sad for u know u loved. if things isn't meant this way, then let the person go to find a happier partner in life.

life is unconditional.

if u want something in return, u r investing. don't invest but do it cos u love the person. love is a complicated thing.

if you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have 2 choices,
1) either tell what you feel and let the love take place forever or
2) hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.

asked yourself, what would make you happy?
would you think that you have everything else, getting what you want... then realize it was someone wanted all along, but too bad 'coz it's him/her you can't have...

love can never be so beautiful without friendship...
one leads to another and the process is irreversible...
the best of lovers are the greatest of friends!

love doesn't have to have a happy ending, coz love doesn't have to end at all.
a man realized he wanted his love back but not wanting to be hurt again. the girl said "no" and the man cried out to God: "if it was meant to be, why did i lose her?" so God replied, "you didn't lose her... you let her go!"

when you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back with the same amount. one of you will be ahead, the other behind. it's either you catch up or the other waits.

never be afraid to fall in love. it may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.
i'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so i'll let you go to find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free...

isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there?
you don't notice them till they are in the arms of someone else...
love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay, the harder it is to leave...
and you can never go without leaving your prints behind.

think.. have you really cared for someone more than you expected?
have you ever tried to love him/her in spite of all the pain?
will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name?

will you???

true love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...
when you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but investing.
if you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using...

i like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend i care, and because i care, i love you. i don't love you because you are my friend; i love you because i do!

it's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride.
i can't choose who i'm gonna love, but i also can't just love who chooses to love me... and you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as i can't blame you for not learning to love me.

"how can i say goodbye to someone i never had? why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? why is that i miss someone i was never with and i ask why i love someone whose love was never mine?"

it's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds...
but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call... magic.
love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you can be whole again.

the cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall...

well, thats the music i'm listening to anyway...

suddnely feel like it's been so long. of what? i can't really say.. or put to words. i really need to get in touch with myself inside. been running around and keeping myself so busy i feel like i'm losing something important to me.

the days fly by, and it was only yesterday i went for my secondary graduating class reunion. initially i got worried over the weather.. but a prayer worked and we had miraculously good weather throughout. i totally don't mind getting drenched for the few minutes at the bus stop. i didn't realise how happy i was to see the people i used to see everyday for almost two years.. was so excited, i was really hyper, chattering things that never went through my head, and making jokes that were both funny and lame. and if it suddenly grew quiet, i would explain that i'm rejuvenating for more. haha, i haven't felt so comfortable in a long time. and hungry.

more people came after 7pm and the final count was over 22, more than half the class turned up! its quite a number especially since its the midst of some of their a' levels and there were some that were working.. if not numbers would have been alot more.

just got a call, lost all moods. lost all thoughts.
don't whether what i'm doing is right or wrong.. but i know its needed, or things won't seem to change.

i'm getting as complicated as i can get. don't know what i want, don't know what i'm looking for. don't know how to express myself the way you want me to. but somehow my heart is getting crushed inside. i've never known myself to be expressive.. and i'm always prone to doing things that i'll somehow regret later. maybe this isn't what you really wanted. i guess you never expected this a year ago.. have i changed?

i'm so lost i don't even know who's right and who's wrong. but does it really matter? somehow i look around and i see relationships falling. will mine come next? i'm starting to get over emotional.. i need to stop dwelling on this.

feeling alittle regretful to have made myself joined so many things. the first few days of the weeks is going to be hectic. just imagine.. sitting in for a meeting from about 9am to 1.30pm. breaking in between for lunch of course. then joining for another briefing regarding the poly forum in bangkok at 2pm. who knows how long this briefing will last. then i'm meeting edmund and marilyn to discuss about our presentation for the forum. and i have to finish before 4.30pm (hopefully) so i can get to orchard in time to meet leigh. we'll probably gym till night. its all about exercise, but hopefully i'll be able to relax my muscles.

tuesday would give me more time to sleep in, but i'll still have to go down to school to collect my blazer for the poly forum. (which reminds me, i still haven't bought my formal skirt! darn those people who are sexist and wouldn't allow pants) i think i'll give the badminton at 12pm a pass. there's a swim camp that i can't stay over, but i promised dorathy that i'll drop by for whatever they have planned at 1pm. i'll try to stay till the night.. but i should be turning lvl 99 in ro! can't blame my excitement and for wanting to go home rite? =p

wednesday brings dread. cos i need to wake up in the wee hours so i can go all the way to the west. meeting the people in my group for poly forum at nyp. y nyp? because thats the school of my faciliting teacher. and at 9am! goodness, i don't even want her to treat me breakfast. i'd rather enjoy more moments of sleep. i'd definately believe that i won't be allowed to go until its passed 1pm. call it a hunch. third sense. whatever. and i doubt i'll be enjoying much of it. ok, i need to inject optimism in myself. thankfully though, i'll be going for a old class reunion next. at east coast. now i wished i had a car... i'll have to prepare myself with a really good, thick book to last me for both trips.

i'll probably take a breather on thursday... if nothing crops up. (arghz, i just remembered i forgot to call up sentosa again) and friday... well, i can't remember my schedule. just thoughts of the first three days is enough to drain me. so much for my holiday.. oh, and i can't even join my youth fellowship for church camp.. so saddened.. because its on the 10th december, and by then school would have already started. bummer.

ok, time for bed. else i won't be able to crawl up tomorrow.

i don't know whats up with blogger but somehow i lost my whole skin in the template... and i didn't save a backup!! T.T so until i find another new one.. guess i'll adopt this skin back again.

well, woke up rather early today. cos i kept drifting in and out of sleep.. so i practically didn't even sleep much in the first place. and weirdly enough, i wasn't really that tired either. maybe its the tinge of excitement. maybe.

met leigh for gym at c.f. and this time, we got a real good workout. did a "full" regime that could have killed me. if leigh didn't persisteted, i think i would have gave up on the rather "lame" machine in less than ten minutes. i'm proud to say i lasted 30minutes.. though i can't say i look forward to the next round, next week.

then i met chris and we had lunch at marche.. the food was nice, and i was really spoilt for choice. i think if you minus the food and drinks, we basically just chatted the whole day. even after we left, we were scouting for the next place to sit down, have a drink, and continue talking! haha, its really been awhile since i had such a nice long chit chat with someone face to face. made me realise that i haven't really talked much lately.

darn, have to stop here to help my mom.. oh well..

unfolding the rosebud

a young, new preacher was walking with an older, more seasoned preacher in the garden one day and feeling a bit insecure about what God had for him to do. he was inquiring of the older preacher, and the older preacher walked up to a rosebush and handed the young preacher a rosebud and told him to open it without tearing off any petals. the young preacher looked in disbelief at the older preacher and was trying to figure out what a rosebud could possibly have to do with his wanting to know the will of God for his life and for his ministry. but because of his high respect for the older preacher, he proceeded to try to unfold the rose, while keeping every petal intact. it wasn't long before he realized how it was impossible to do so. noticing the younger preacher's inability to unfold the rosebud while keeping it intact, the older preacher began to tell the following poem...

it is only a tiny rosebud,
a flower of God's design;
but i cannot unfold the petals
with these clumsy hands of mine.

the secret of unfolding flowers
is not known to such as i.
God opens this flower so sweetly,
when in my hands they fade and die.

if i cannot unfold a rosebud,
this flower of God's design,
then how can I think I have wisdom
to unfold this life of mine?

so i'll trust in Him for His leading
each moment of every day.
i will look to Him for His guidance
each step of the pilgrim way.

the pathway that lies before me,
only my heavenly Father knows.
i'll trust Him to unfold the moments,
just as He unfolds the rose.

muahahaha.. so proud of myself... to have fixed the error on my bloggie. now all i need is to find the song i wanna play.. went thru like thousands of sites already.. *sigh*

i sooo didn't work my heart out today. was in a real slacky mood. one moment i'd be sitting by the court, chatting away and day-dreaming. next i'd self volunteer to go to the school bookshop to buy drinks. anything to escape from working out. haha, i didn't even sweat at the gym. then i got an unexpected call from chris and i felt so guity that i nua my way through.. i made up by trying to put more effort in swimming. but i had too much to eat for lunch.. or should i say the serving was too big? ended up having bad aches near my tummy. swimming freestyle was real tiring. edwin said its like that in the beginning. everything new you learn will be tough. i got such a shock when he said he felt swimming breaststroke was tiring. oh.. and i'm sad.. edison couldn't get the goggles i wanted from arena. T-T

then there's a change of plans.. instead of meeting chris and miff, i'm swimming with jovi tomorrow! haha, so excited.. even though i swam till i almost puked today.. i still like swimming. no harm practicing more of my freestyle strokes. kelvin was very kind to let me rest when i was really out of breath, which gave my tummy a chance to settle back down before the next set gets started. i've got no stamina, and thats something i've got to admit. ^^"

ok, gotta turn in soon.. i think this entry took me almost 2hrs to write.. got so much interruptions.. yikes.

but i still wanna blog. don't wanna neglect this site, especially since its my chance to reflect about myself. otherwise i doubt i'll really think so much. perhaps.

afraid..

kyasarin
a simple girl with a complex mind. someone that worries too much about all things valid and invalid. foodie, japie, cutie & alcoholic. nuff said.
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