bless the HR department. pay will come in early on the 18th of december!! that means more money for shopping... which means i might be able to get my new phone and mp3 player!! oohh so excited!

even though there's alot of money to spend on presents as well.. but aya, dun worry before u recieve the money right? work hard this week, then enjoy the next. cos i'm take 3 days leave tooo ~

just need to pia abit. got a damn lot of reports to write now. ugh!!

it has been a rather crappy day today.

1st was the morning incident with me admiring a girl who is so fair at the bus stop. but then when i sat down, she stood right at the point where it blocked my view. i'm like... wa lao.. of all places to stand why must stand there?? its like so close to the dustbin, then not only block me, but another lady sitting further away from me. want to see the upcoming bus number must lean very forward or backwards. super uncomfortable.

then at work, i caught a glimsp of a zouk booklet. and as i thought, i got a complimentary ticket! problem is... there's only one. and the person who passed it to me told me that dun go and look for the other for more cos he very stressed already. and i can understand his pain.. thats y i didn't approach him and i'm utterly grateful he remembered to give me one. but... what am i gonna do with one? -_-" steve if u read my blog its a good time to ask for the tic before i change my mind lol~

i expect alex will not be going. he might make a fuss if i did. and i doubt i can convince him to go with me since i only got 1 ticket and i might need to offer to pay half of what one ticket cost? so troublesome. to anyone else.. if u know me personally and want tickets, cheapest price i can get for u is $32.50. Early bird is $38 and if you buy on the day itself its $45.

generally, its still expensive...

and there were a few other ke gao things.. but dammit i forgot already.. ah wells..

come to think of it, its not really that much if you spread it over 2 years.

the lord's been kind. i woke up today with a slight rash i think from the necklace i bought a few weeks back. because of it though, i managed to sleep an extra 4 hours.

then i had a hunch. and i went to check on the website and yea, i wasn't selected into waltz. i expected it cos i didn't had any contact with them, be it before or after the 'audition'. so i didn't have any chance to build any friendship neyway. should they really boast to be a guild that's close, then yea, had i been in the voting committee i'd do the same thing and take my name off the list too.

its a comprimise.

like i said, the lord's been kind. i've pioritised my work and my past 3 events went great despite the weather. i sacrificed more time from games and spending time with alex because of that and i won't regret it. there's 3 more this weekend and i hope everything goes well for those too.

it still really hit me quite hard, when animenia told me i'm wierd. i asked joker. he said i'm not. i ask myself, and i think i am. and i think joker said i'm not wierd cos he thinks i'm a mad cat. lols.

recently i've felt that my nature is being quiet. but i know with the right people, i'm so not. but these people don't stay with me very long. so i feel very lonely, and remain quiet. sometimes i do go crazy and have an upburst. in real life i'm always met with this look like "what happened to you?" when i suddenly become too energetic. online, its just craziness..

*sigh* so anyways, i've also been feeling something about hatered. but i'll go for the outing and see how it goes next week. i hope my hunch this time, is wrong.

why is there such an alarming increase of people getting passwords for their blogs? feel sad that i know of so many blogs that are blocked off and i wasn't given a password. like, since they didn't tell me, i don't wanna ask the password lest i find out they don't want me to know in the first place. sigh, why am i so kapo neway?

i've been like so addicted to read blog after blog after blog everyday when i reach the office. =x

then after all the reading, then i'll start doing work. or if there's nothing to read anywhere, i'd turn to channelnewsasia.com. like i'm really that desperate. but of course, there's scenario 3 whereby i reach office and start work immediately cos there's so much to do. not that i'm complaining. i'm happy to do anything so long as it's not reports, worschedules and minutes. those 3 i only start when deadlines drive me up the wall and i'm like forced at gun point.

well, the weekends came and went. despite the rain, all my events went pretty well and my guests were all pretty much super happy. i got a huge amount of satisfaction of course.. just that.. wish they wrote an email so i could get zapped and get some prizes too.. =x its like a pratical reward ma!

then yesterday i took a cab to and from jolene's wedding. wasted $28 just like that.. but i was still quite glad i went. the food was not bad.. lol, think i'm really getting used to f&b's cooking.. the food all same one!! should ask them change menu already.. but neway, the real limelight was the bride and groom of course. goodness, the wedding dinner had a retro theme leh.. actually on that day itself i really didn't feel very retroly dressed. some of my other colleagues were more super enthu until can die.. haha, was very funny.. can you imagine what the both of them was wearing? i sure as hell couldn't, but when i saw them i could only say they look fantastic! damn hip and chio. can't wait to see the photos. i'm just really really happy for both of them.

*sigh* i wonder when it will be my turn.

then at 2am yesterday (which is actually today?), there was this cartoon show on channel 5. it was showing about a girl who was freaking out from her wedding. then she was seeking help from some superhero and the superhero told her to calm down. that its normal to freak out moments just before your wedding. and if u really want to know whether the guy's marriage material, use the porch test. the proch test being to imagine yourself many years down the road, where you're prolly old wrinkled up and sitting by the porch taking a break... then now, can you imagine the guy you're about to marry you beside you? both old and wrinkled, but feelings unchanged.. or something like that. if its yes, then yea! he's you guy.

i tried to picture alex. it failed. i wondered why and i thought of another scene in a tv show i watched. (die la, been watching too much tv) i think it was some korean drama in chinese but of course, i was reading from the english subtitles. there was this girl who said something like this:

"how can you come when you want and go when you want? if this is love, then i guess i cannot love. because its too painful. just too painful"

and i totally agree. i feel so strongly to what she has said. its like i've finally understood why my reactions have been so for so long.

alex may not be such a total jerk as the guy in the tv drama, but he doesn't understand me the way i wish my future soulmate to. we have so many difference that i've tried to explain to him but he couldn't accept. things he say he will change and learn to become but i doubt he'll understand.. still i'm just giving us both time.. maybe time will tell, but i dunno. i just hope i don't come to a point where i'll hate him so.

he was telling me the other day his family is leaving to go on holiday and he'll be so lonely returning to an empty home. hello? i've been returning to an empty home for the past 3 days now. try guessing how i feel? so what are u trying to hint to me huh? him and his mom still want me go his place do household chores somemore. i also got my own chores my mom won't do for me can? doing out of politeness and courtesy doesn't mean i'm your wife already can...

need to chill. peaceout myself -_-

read something on today's online, and found something very inspiring i thought i'd share it here. i quote wood.

"its really important for everyone to realise that we shouldn't comprimise on those things that are individual to us, especially for other people"

and suddenly it feels as though the world isn't such a lonely place. well, even if that didn't last long...

i really really want to catch happy feet now!

well, yesterday i had a very enjoyable catch-up session with mossy and melia at some ulu area of bedok that i knew how to go about in a car but was clueless on bus. had we not been on the phone with them saying "get off the bus! get off now! now!!" i would definately have no idea where i would have ended up at. god's blessing indeed.

after a western meal at the coffee shop.. (that had the pricing of food at pastamania), and was treated to melted tiramisu, we just chatted and chatted until.. it was time to go. their mom was calling and my mom was having menopause (found out only when i got home). think i might go back again sometimes.. it really wasn't so bad. maybe just a tad too much light flies.. which were like dropping everywhere. -_-

well, they're going to hokkaido!! feels good to know i might get some instant corn soup from the 100 yen shop or maybe some cute stuffs. at the same time, i wish time flew and we were all old enough, rich enough & free enough to go backpacking to japan. of course, one of us would need to master the japanese language... but i'm sure we'll survive if we didn't. =D

then i walked all the way to bedok interchange and took a bus home. when i reached home it was like 11pm again.. -_- and my mom threw a fit at me.

menapause.

i've been like working my ass off for the past few months and i almost always go home at around 10pm to 11pm. why? cos the earliest i can knock off is 6.30pm.. if i have dinner with alex i'll prolly be on my way home at like 8pm or 8.30pm.. of which the journey home would take about 1 hour to 1 hr & 30 mins depending on where i am. so walah! 10pm.

in the case if i go for my 2nd part time job (which i have been avoiding cos i'm really just too damn tired) i'd arrive at clark quay at 7 plus? then there's dinner and hangaround until 11pm plus usually.. got seminar then worse cos it always start at 10pm.. reach home sure 12 to 1am..

then if its purely because i have a night event be it party, dinner or movie screening.. then confirm guarentee plus chop i can only reach home in the wee hours. my best record is working round the clock till the next morning which is my event day WHICH had a SHOOTING so i looked HORRIBLE because i was so busy i didn't even have time for make-up. *sigh*

i was surprised mom n dad didn't even noticed i didn't go home. it was only later that i found out that they didn't go home either. figures. =/

well i was really rather pissed with her for throwing a tantrum at me, saying that i treat the house like a hotel. don't see me in the morning and when i come home she's asleep. and that she can't imagine how i'd be like if i went to australia. like hinting that she won't let me go anymore.

like, she's home all day and relaxing and watching tv. i'm working and not clubbing or partying can? you think i bloody like to work till so late, everynight not enough sleep, no time to play games or spend time to myself meh?? i'm not a machine! i have feelings!! i'm bloody tired and wanna quit from stress already la!!! i'm so tired and just want to come home for some PEACE. is this not responsible enough for you????????? wtf does she want!!!

hrmph. tried to remain clam and remind myself that she's menapausing. then after i made a point she change topic say why i never pick up her call instead when just a few seconds ago she was rubbing me about me coming home late. i couldn't be bothered to answer her. i already lost count how many times SHE never pick up MY CALLS.

and that night i locked my room to sleep. a sure sign to let her know if she tried to open my door, that i don't want to be disturbed. woke up to see she was awake and washing the previous night's dishes. and i left wor work without saying goodbye.

i just didn't want any more conversations. i've got enough work on my mind.

and sure enough, i was kept busy with meetings after meetings. and i can't wait to go home. cos i think they won't be home. and they'll be in KL or Malacca for the weekend! which means peace for me when i'm home. chiong ah.. just one super long email to send and home i will go!!

damn.

still in office.

surfing the net and not doing work.

no mood to do any work.

i need to do 3 workschedules, 1 report all by tomorrow.

ARGH!!!!!!

most sian part is i'm still 1 hour and 30 mins away from home and i'm too poor to take taxi.

i want to cry... T-T

hasn't it ever occured to anyone? or is it just me?
it suddenly just dawned on me that there's 5 weeks in every month! Its only just once in 4 years, when there's 28 days in feb that there's 4 weeks.

-_- so troublesome to organize meetings.

neways, its another busy & stressed day at work. but one must find time for self to destress (hence blogging) if not will go hysterical. rite?

finally completed my shopping for my 'retro look' for jolene's wedding this sunday. was supposed to meet alex for dinner at chinatown when i remembered that i forgot to bring out my ezlink card. no ezlink card = damn expensive transport fees. in times of crisis like these where payday is still a week away, every cent counts. lolz, so managed to convince alex to makan at vivo city instead.

turns out that the food at the basement food court was really good! as compared to food republic upstairs. dun judge a food court by its outlook man.

spent another $11 on braclets & $15 on a really nice looking necklace. alex gave special approval of it that it looks nice. which i do agree.. just that.. it doesn't look retro.

went into another debate on the defination of retro.. and i can't remember what i said but i think i wasn't very justified.. so i still bought it nehow. =/

then we finally were able to make our way home via bus 65. sends me straight to my house bus stop but takes about 1 hr and 30mins at least. i watched america's top model while alex tried to study for his test tomorrow. jade is out! danielle won! really quite unexpected, but i'm happy with the results. not that i hate jade.. but i think her looks will fit somewhere better. definately not to the general public.

by the time i was home it was 11pm @.@ and mom was hogging the computer. its not that tough to justify my need to use the com, but my dad was watching tv on very HIGH volume too. so i could only resign to fate, bathe and watch tv in my room till 12.. then go back to the living room to play audition.

i really really wanted to play longer.. but after 1am, (tv is off) but my dad was still in the living room and nagging me to sleep early.. and i know i should.. since there's work the next day and i need to wake up at 7am.. aaahhz... so i obeyed.. and went back to my room, only to realise there's CSI. lols

watch until fall asleep and woke up LATE. actually i wasn't that late. but because i dazed for like 10 mins, then missed the bus.. yea, so i became VERY LATE. sigh.

too many events to handle ler la.... i want a holiday!!!!!

Nail in the Fence

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. " A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.

and yeah, i'm sorry if i left any holes in anyone.
need an act from god to cover my own.

am sinful.

totally lost concentration in sermon whilst in church.. then after that, i went shopping by myself.

of which i spent $25 on my nails.
$59 on a dress (my budget was $65! =D) and they gave me a discount card! too bad its only vaild till next yr jan..
$5 on 3 pairs of earrings (the variety was huge!! 0.0)
$30 on a haircut.. of which i made a small lie..

me: how much does it cost for a haircut of my length?
hair stylist (hs): hmm.. $45
me: $45??!! oh wow.. thanks *about to walk away*
hs: we do have student rates.. for u it'll be $30
me: $30 ah.. but i didn't bring my student card. anyway thanks *abt to walk away again*
hs: oh, you are from secondary sch?
me: hah *spurr on the spot* from polytechnic
hs: u can always come back tomorrow!
me: huh? haha, its too far.. i'm here cos of church..
hs: you really wanna cut today?
me: yeah...
hs: ok la ok, take a seat

fact 1: i graduated like almost half a yr ago.. i'm not a student anymoreee.
fact 2: she said i was from secondary school!?? OMG

i happily told her the cut i wanted.. which was actually a trim. all the while still self cursing why i'm going to pay 30 bucks for a trim.

to my surprise, some cross-dresser came over to cut my hair. then why wasn't it her who asked me why kind of cut i wanted?? for the record, she didn't ask.

and then.. while i was reading the latest cleo mag... she cut away so much of my hair!!! she layered it!!! wanted to faint and scream but had to be nice and smile while she happily swish and swosh my hair. !@$^#$^@#$!

what to do, cut also cut already.. so much for keeping the length for over half a year. it really didn't look that bad.. but i was internally cursing her.. or should i say him, for layering.. cos it'll take FREAKING long to grow em back.

sigh. my only consolation was that alex said i looked very nice and cute. and he seem to really meant it. so.. haiz.. nothing i can do.

then came home after dinner at alex's place only to suddenly realise i missed the hangman game by dj. -_- but by some unknown luck, animania told me i was shortlisted to waltz.

was so excited i went it and looked for them straight away. then realise i need to play and wanted to slap myself for not warming up outside 1st. first games was 8k somemore. never screwed up so bad before can... the kind where i press spacebar too early for not only once. not twice. but so many times until i lost count -_-"

but anyway i'm not pro in 8k.. actually i'm also not pro in 4k.. chance is even more totally out of the question. suddenly also lost all hope. it was like die la die la die la. but the peeps were really encouraging haha.

tried to tell myself to relax also.. its not like i'm desperate to get in to know them as friends. its just something if possible, will be great cos practically none of my friends play audition. if its not cos their com is screwed, its cos the programme is screwed and won't allow the game to start. jam in the patching or something. feel extremely sad b'cos of that. but nothing i can do abt it.. so just try to play as much as i can.. while waiting for my friends to join me in future if they would.

it'll be great to be out with a bunch of peeps playing game n then like going for supper after that.. just hanging out n such. last time i went for such an outing it was with the people from ragnarok. and just remembering it, the friendship that was betrayed. my accounts and how they got hacked. chris... all bring memories and emotions i don't wanna relive.

sigh. anyways, whether i'm in or not.. i tried my best. they look like a rather nice bunch of people to hang out with but i really don't know if i'm meant to be. perhaps i'm better off a loner.

aiks, time to hit the sacks.

i'm seriously seriously tired beyond words. very lerthargic. like, i'm wondering how in the world did i even manage to drag myself to work today?? oh ya, my comic book. super great distraction.

but now sitting at my desk... can't expect me to take it out to read right. no mood to work.. my head's spinning. heavy.. argh..

wonder if its due to the incense smoke yesterday at tampines interchange. was about to go home with alex but decided to browse through some of the carts. then, we passed by this shop full of incense stuff. not the kind u burn for dead people ok, is the supposedly nicer scents like lavender, lemon grass etc etc.

both of us went eeyer and went to the shop beside but after leaving the area we're like.. "woah.. abit giddy leh" maybe they're burning some opium smell eh? why else would people go back and buy? the smoke is so.. stuffy. like it blocks my airway. like HAZE!!!! didn't know blogging abt this can bring such enlightenment.

neways, back to today.. me. sleepy. & not even the prospect of shopping at vivo later can perk me up. but thinking about buying a dress does make me kinda excited inside. u see, its two different matter.. one is thinking abt having to walk around to look for the dress, the other is to have 'found' and image focus on paying for it already.

i miss auditionsea... alex promise i can play whole day tomorrow while he study. wheeeee~

die.

need to find a retro dress!! ain't it cool? its the first time ever i got invited to a wedding. not by some relative that invites my mom, dad & 'family', but me!!!

yay, is first ever wedding of friend/colleague & the theme is retro! hence my new shopping items-to-buy. lists as follows:

1. fly-like huge sunglasses: $15 - $18
2. retro dress: $20 - $65?
3. accessories to match: $20 - $30
4. retro looking shoes: $15 - $25

not to mention money to set aside for ang pao. will be so poor... thank god the day after her wedding dinner is pay day. ^-^

have been fantasizing about unicorns, dragons, pheonixs & exotic white tigers that can speak to self. anyone knows what this means? hmm.

also just finished the briget jones diary (edge of reason)! shall start on the mocking bird next. also currently addicted to tsubasa chronicles. after buying book 1 2 days ago, i couldn't stop myself and bought book 2 and 3 yesterday. -_-

must control spending urge!! no more money le.. this sat still need to cook lunch for alex somemore. stress...

its such a small world. was just browsing thru my list of blogs when i saw angeleigh's photo with grace in grace's blog.

i knew grace in sec sch.
met leigh in poly.
and now they're together in uni, in the same course!

i wanted to burst out and do something when i realise:
1. after so long, though i linked grace, she didn't link me
2. i guess she forgot abt me..
3. leigh's blog site takes ages to load
4. they're both having exams
5. guess it'll sound pretty dumb anyway

so yea, decided i'm not gonna do anything about it. -_-

sometimes i wonder if i'm still here, remembered, or forgotten?

kind of depressing... neways, feeling unwell. think i'll rush straight home after work. wait, maybe i'll go get a haircut! yes, i'll call right away..

a blog title dedication! nah, its really just that i can't seem to get it out of my head all morning. been replaying and replaying the scenario of seeing that guy that looked so much like chris last saturday. but it was ernst & young! the group full of accountants and auditors!! whats more, this group is from KL?!!!

i couldn't stop my mind from whirling and thinking. maybe it was him. we exchanged stares for like 5 seconds before i broke away. its rude to stare i know, but then why was he staring back?? so maybe it was him? if it was, he really lost alot of weight! but the name list i got didn't have his name...

arghz.. i've never really seem to get over him. its like when i'm with him n i'd have flashbacks of me and delong. so now i'm with alex its happening again? whats wrong with me???

maybe i just lack more sleep. sigh. feels quite horrible got in somewhat of a dispute with alex. again. he said he felt being neglected. yes i do spend a horrid amount of time at work. yes i love me games to bits n time have to be balanced between him and my games. hey at least my jap classes, part-time job & diving is out of the picture ya?

with so many things to do, its really not easy being all lovey dovey and dedicated to him. or at least, i can't seem to pull it off. somehow i'd get into this detached and cold mode. i guess it must feel horrible on the recieving side. then again, how'd you think i feel if i look for confidences and you fail horribly as one? of course i have to be my hard cold self to withstand things.

as mom would always say, don't trust men. yada yada. need to be strong and independent. be able to fend your yourself... sigh, its so tiring. and i guess it's making it hard for me to love.

its too early in the morning for me to go off blabbering abt these stuff to myself. apologise to any readers out there. this post is just rubbish.

just drowned myself with water.. feels good!!!

my system's getting better~ hurray! shyt, starting to blog like bridget jones diary.. which reminds me, the book belongs to kelvin.. arghh.. must call him once i finish reading it. got another book that belongs to kerrie and jolyn with me...
neways i'm thankful my body's metabolism rate seem to be more normal.. i think. lost another 1 kg. maybe i should aim to be 50kg instead of 52! am sure will look damn gorgeous. haha, esp with my hair growing to be much longer now. wheee~

also getting comments all over that i look thinner (yes!) and tanner (not good!!) so all in all, still ok. am satisfied, & almost flying over the moon. must be all the stress from the past events..

no wonder haven't got much work done.. but its ok, will pia all of em tmr. =p

my eyes feel wierd. if it wasn't for the meeting later in the afternoon i would have just put on my specs and wore my slippers to work. thank god for concealers.. aya, make-up in general.

its been some time since i last slept for barely 2 hours! those were the days in poly... think i was a serious game addict then. but come to think of it, i still am! =3 its just that situation and circumstances forced me to move out of that 'life' of mine.

if i married a golden turtle and resign to being a housewife at home, i think the 1st thing i'll do, is sit in front of my com and do a search for maids-in-asia.com. lol, once found and hired, then i can truly game all day.. wa seh, really cannot imagine.. haha

neways, i had really needed the 'auditioning' session, so, many thanks to vahnoal (noal for short) really.. never met someone who has that much threshold for letting someone win. but after checking my exp lvl.. i'm like fcuk. after so long, only 5k. and another 26k to go before i can attain my clubber level. feels damn far can..

how in the world.. there's people above level 30 already, which in my opinion is siaoness beyond description. i can't even maintain my ranks. wish i had more time..

shyt, have yet to get a prezzie for yew long's er, long belated b'day too. got no idea what to buy.

kinda self centered but, omg i'm so in love with the new sony ericsson phone model W850i!!! funny it might sound coming from a girl but its damn chio!! (i'm referring to the white casing of coz) *swoons*

but i try to make it a habit to bring myself back to reality. reality = going aussie. who brings phones to aussie?? should consult remy on this. funny how mom is swooning over him again this morning.

-english translated-
mom: u know, yuan liang (remy) is back
me: issit *continues to tie shoelace*
mom: yea, jane told me and i saw him in church. he looks so handsome now. last time he come back got that god-awful hairstyle, then dye hair colour like monster.
me: issit.. *ugh, 1 more shoes.. stupid double knot..*
mom: but now he's in good shape, and his hair is nice and black.. you two don't keep in contact anymore?
me: not much.. *done! now my keys..*
mom: of course, i guess he don't have your new number
me: uh huh.. so he graduate already? *opens door and gate*
mom: oh yea, come to think of it its been a few years right? *mumbles to herself*
me: yep, gotta go! bye~

reality fact number 2.. he's smart. tall. pretty good looking (on my last impression). well to do. shares many, if not most of my hobbies. is a christian. quite funny. very imaginative.... but! we got no chemistry.

end of story. =/

saded.. lost one of my big tooth last friday.. but i really can't blame anyone... i saw it coming like almost half a year ago. =/

then now i feel pressured... cos apparently its not as simple as just extracting a tooth and thats it. i have to either have a denture, put on braces or let my teeth run free.. literally. so the best thing i thought was braces! wanted 'em like since i was 9 or 10. and now i'm 20! but apparently my parents look very reluctant to aid me financially.

so the hole is there. and i guess nothing will be done... perhaps the best i can do is pray to God to not let my teeth run too freely. though highly impossible, i should also continue to pray that my teeth will fall nicely into place. God can do miracles ya!

ya.. just need to will myself back to the dentist to fill my other decay.. i so hate the dentist!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmm.. shall start planning about my trip to aussie. the more prepared i am the better my chances of flying. i will fly overseas to study!!

which means i'll have to tender in may or latest, june 2007.
which means another 6 to 7 months more of working on sunny island Sentosa.

not that i dread working here.. well, its just the calling for change pulling me away i guess?

and when i go, i shall go with my bonus pay. and with that pay i will buy my dream creative vision m mp3 player and bring it to aussie. hmm.. should find out what price they're selling there. skarly cheaper than singapore then i can go bang wall.. hmm.. think of more plans later.. work finish first ba T_T

i just lost 10cc of my blood and $228 for some super comprehensive blood screening test. it's suppose to detect a whole list of stuff, including sugar levels, cholestral level.. cancer here, there and everywhere! like i remember what else, its a damn long list can.. i just thought, okay, once and for all man. i've never done SUCH a comprehensive blood test before, and the last time my blood was drawn in some clinic, (which was years ago i think) till now, i still don't know what the fuck is the results of what test they were conducting. or maybe i've just forgotten.

but i'm damn sure i didn't recieve any report about it. i kind of imagined it was some high security data the government want ya know? like what u see in television, in those high security area, theyhave like every since piece of information on you and there's the you can run but you cannot hide kind of tagline in the movies... dammit i forgot the name of what it was.

so anyway.. i think the doctor can be a really good sales person man. knowing how much i hate needles, i was still rather impressed by the way he said how much info you'll get if you do the whole thing, what good it'll do and the main thing is you can't get this kind of price outside which i have to fully agree on that. go to private clinic, get poked and maybe half of the test results i'll be getting might even come out to a thousand ba? also, i was fully convinced that its worth it after i heard i might be able to claim the full amount! auntie instinct kicked in and i felt it is totally worth it..

until i found out later that that 'claim' can only be done next year in january. -_-" i so feel like slapping myself left right center. but my left elbow seems alittle bruised and i think i lost all strength already..

kyasarin
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