my house is almost done! yay~~~~~

it looks pretty nice.. though i'm alil not satisfied with some stuff... but aiyah, its not that bad to cause a fuss. i'm just worried of the fuss it will cause me in future... oh, i'm refering to my roomand kitchen cabinets. they're all WHITE. i mean, i love white... but i thought i'll be getting some walnut brown boarders... not walnut brown on the side of the door... gahh.. hard to explain... you'll probably have to see it to get what i'm trying to say.

and oh... lucky i went down to check out the house yesterday.. they paint the living room with the wrong white <_<

THEN

lucky we went to check again today... else i'll have one wall in MY room... BROWN. not just any brown... but BROWN LIKE SAI. my goodness. what in the *beep beep* *beeeeeep beep beeeep* is the contractor thinking? still can tell me.. nice shade of brown.. with tinge of green.. *smacks head* puke blood for him to see..

got it changed to dark purple. pray hard that it'll turn out nice... not nice i also will have to suck thumb la. ._.

tmr will be another long day.

i was right though.. my irritable mood was caused by pms.
minasan, gomenasai! >_<

i wasted $58 bucks today.

not from playing mahjong or buying anything online, but by staying home, getting sick and spending it on consulting doctors. pural cos the first doctor i consulted gave me medication that did not help, and i had to go and see a second one... whom requested that i stop all medication from the first doctor and just stick to the new one. (apparently if i continued it'd just get worse) o.o

in any case, my cough did get much better... though next thing i knew i was at mac donald's with my sis's whole family, having prosperity burger, curly fries, ice green tea, half a red bean pie and one mac flurry. haaa....

wrong time to satisfy my craving.. but what the heck... just hope i'll be able to sleep later... coughing non stop for 3 hours in the past 2 nights is no joke. i really am courting my own death eh.. ._.

just found a new anime to watch by chance.. and it's really pretty sweet, called Bokura ga Ita.

its funny how things always look simpler when u just look at it as an observer. what am i supposed to do? wakaranai...

normally my voice is already pretty soft. now its... worse. sigh... though at least my throat ain't hurting. i just can't really talk properly.

and my cough is back. someone once told me that if you cough, you shouldn't eat chicken. so when mom suggested having chicken rice for dinner, i told her i can't, cos i'm coughing.. yeah?

so i dropped her off at the coffee shop opposite my sister's place and drove back. 20 minutes later she came home, and guess what she bought? Chicken Rice

-__-"

half a chicken somemore. what to do... eat lor!? i can only hope that its just a myth about how eating chicken makes your cough worse.

i think i've been rather good today.. helped my mom with the laundry, avoided 2 near accidents on the road, started reading on my sis's feng shui book, napped on the sofa, helped my mom with an atm transfer, secured my air tickets, waited for the gas cooker and hood to arrive at my new home and cleared the dinner table.

no complaints abt me not starting to study. heh..

things i still need to do..
1) buy the remaining toilet accessories
2) go to balestier (not sure of the road name) to look for fans and lights
3) buy my pillow (gawd its been so long)
4) ensure the delivery of the remaining household appliances
5) move everything from the warehouse to my new house
6) settle my visa (i have totally no mood for this)
7) register my timetable
8) buy my school textbooks (if i can find them)
9) shop for chinese new year clothes!

time flies... and in less than a month from now, i'll be flying back! not returning until december this year... hope i'll be able to make a decision as to whether to stay or continue working there by then.
30 days countdown~

it has been getting alittle too much when i'm always stuck inbetween. i can't care about it anymore when i have no answers or solutions to the problems. hey, i'm no psychiatrist. no mediator. no doctor. if you adults can't settle it then just let it be yah? i'm tired and i've already repeated myself too many times. go do what you wanna do..

money is the root of all evil? perhaps.

communication is the key? they will never live to find out.

here i am... so alone.


its nice to sit down and talk to my sis about the kids..
they're both just so young, and their personalities so different.
how do you discipline a 4yr old with strong charisma??
so tiring to bring up.

and i wonder...


really glad i met up with ash and wei ying yesterday to catch the songs of the sea in sentosa. it wasn't that the show was all that great... but the company that brought me back to my old crazy self. i haven't been able to laugh that much in such a long while... o.o
then we went to clark quey to chill and that was the end to our little outing.
wei ying should be on the plane now to london and ash's flight coming soon on the 27th... yeah i'm definitly looking forward to living with ash again soon. :)

even though it looks like i've still go so much to settle here. *sigh!*

i've got another dental appointment at 9am. which is... less than 9 hours away!
T^T
then its a trip to IMM.
then to CCK.
and maybe, just maybe, to meet alex. (my schedule can be so screwed up, who knows what may happen..) and i've been trying to think of what i should do sometimes. thanks to shun i'm getting myself more committed to my relationship.

i've seriously lost count how many times i've said the words break up. and i've been so bad that his friends tell him, why does he persist. MY friends tell me, why am i with him. and with that, i ask... so why are we together!?!? lol... so funny la...

for now, i've given up distancing myself from him. is the problem with me? back in aus, i was all so fired up (dunno if i got ash fired up as well) and ash broke off with alvin. and i couldn't. i am soft hearted, i feel guilty, and i guess thats where what shun's words make all that much sense.

if my heart gets broken, you guys better be there to keep me from committing suicide hor!? thats what friends are for right... haha.

touchwood.

i'm alittle confused.

don't know what to do.

again.

running out of energy.

running out of time.

having a headache.

again.


argh!

i don't want to care anymore. don't want to think anymore. come what may lah!

yesterday was almost horrible. almost because it wasn't really devastating... but it was definitely bad enough.

first, my mom told me a horrible news.

then there was my dental appointment. i had to have an injection and not only did it made my upper lip numb, my nose was numb too!! o.o
thank God it wasn't too bad a process... this dentist at my sis house area is really so gentle... but the worse thing is, i've got at least 3 more fillings to go!?! curses....

nvm, then, being "drugged", i went back to catch more sleep... only to be awaken by my mother again. the air con guy doing the installation of the pipes will be arriving early.

okay.

so off we went, me and my parents... to see that cocky installer.
we debated over how the pipes should run before he started work, and thats when i realised... i forgot to check the materials. and a lucky thing i did! i questioned why the copper pipes are guage 24 when i ordered guage 23. comeon, its stated clearly in the invoice!? then the assistant went to change it..

okay.

i check the insulation pipes. wth? so obvious, got 2 colour and one more of a different quality. i was stunned and before i could say anything, the assistant told me the different quality one is used for a different pipe.

okay

so i ask why is the other insulation pipe mixed!?!? it's labelled properly.. with one as class 0 and another class 1. yes i know both are useable. yes i know class o is better than class 1. but in the invoice its stated clearly that we will get class 1. if u want to give us class 1, stick to it. no stock? then use all class 0 lah!

i was so pissed. the installers couldn't do anything and asked me to call their head office. so i call lor! kpkb at the guy. knn! first u give me wrong wire. if i never check how? second you never inform me, ownself change and give your workers 1 different insulation pipe. you got my number right? can call me to tell me what time your workers will arrive, cannot tell me sorry you ran out of stock and have to use two different pipes ah? No WORK ETHICS AH? No DECENCY!? NO COURTESY!??

THEN, still got one coil of already done up copper wire in insulation pipe. HOW CAN I TRUST that the copper pipe inside is guage 23 or 24!? You blur blur bring up guage 24, how will i know you also blur blur put in wrong wire?? WTH, WHAT ELSE IS CHANGED THAT I DON'T KNOW ABOUT?

i was so angry. sigh. and i stayed to watch them install everything before leaving. wasted 3 to 4 hours of my day la.. and i haven't even eaten my lunch yet. so i had satay bee hoon in the neighbourhood before going back to my sis house, and lo and behold... another drama broke out.

the horrid news that my mom told me about in the morning... now has spread to my sis and brother in law. after much talk and discussion and distress, i got the maid packed and my sister and brother went down with the maid to the police station.

afterwhich they then sent the maid to the agency. gawd the drama. what is it with philipino maids?? i have never met a really good one in my lifetime so far. seriously. and its the case that all the negative stories i've heard about them have all been negative as well.

i feel so troubled by the stuff going on at the new house and worried over whats going on at my sister's house too. why is there so much drama going around!?

sigh... spent the night talking to my sister over the incidents that happened and she was just still so troubled that she took a day off from work today. and we talked over feng shui and i spent more time reading up on it before working on a revised quote that the contractor never got back to me about. till date, the rennovation has started and we havent even signed a single contract. my parents and i have no idea how much costhave incurred in total. and my cousin, the contractor, is like so preoccupied with god knows what. arghhh....

my only consolation now, is that its friday.. and i don't have to wake up early tomorrow. whether i'll have a restful sleep, is another matter altogether. entertaining kids is very tiring. x_x

this fortune telling thing is so wrong la. i'm always working hard lor! but its still fun to go see.. hmm... my lunar birthday is 22nd may.. can celebrate 2 birthday? haa...

Do-it-yourself Fortune Telling by FengShuiRoyPhua.com.

Your western birth date is 28.6.1986
Your lunar birth date is 22.5.1986

Your fortune: You need not work so hard to succeed in your career throughout your whole life. You are able to be independent to make a fortune and you are always fortunate. In early years, there are always blessings, you can go wherever you wish and all things will turn out to be lucky. You are moderately lucky.

went for a site inspection to see the progress of my new house and it looks pretty good.. now i can only pray that it will turn out good.

and i dread tomorrow. x_x i've got a dental appointment at 9am.

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._. i've set aside $250 for the fillings to come. and i know its not enough.. God, please help me! T^T i hope they're not too serious or too late to be saved.

thought i'd make just a quick entry...

i attempted to DIY my hair to a shade of dark purple... and i think i failed. x_x

well, the consolation though, is that its still.... a colour.

also bought myself 2 more new Ts, a sports bra, watch strap and headphones!!!! yay~~

anyways.... after many many hours of walking along lvl 3 of IMM, we (my parents and I) finally bought our AIRCON!!!! Spending hours reading up on the different brands, specs, blah blah.. paid off. seriously, to anyone who wanna buy air conditioners.. there's actually alot of sales talk lies out there! be warned.. and do your homework!!

the aircon service tech better call me up soon and do a proper installtion for me on thurs...

anyways, i'm SO glad the decision over the air conditionor is over. it was really such a hard decision... i'm really developing a phobia to going to IMM you know?

yes i still got to return to IMM. Again. we still got the gas stove and hood to buy... the toilet accessories, taps and kitchen sink.. *screams and runs around the room*

at least i have in mind what we're getting... though i estimate we'll still take at least another 2 hours walking in IMM buying the stuff. thats what happens when you've 2 parents to satisfy and think about cost, cost, cost.


couple days back while lunchin with shun, he pointed something i didnt see in myself. andd i forgot what was it already.. still, i don't know or understand why i'm always so insecure. why i'd retreat inside and be so afraid of getting hurt. why have i stopped myself from loving? and that night i realise i've hurt alex so much too...

this time alex didn't make me promise him a list of stuff the way he used to, and i agreed to change... for the better or worse, this relationship.. only time will tell...

sipping milo as i write this entry... and feeling my throat detoriate.. but it still taste good!

slept till really late cos i guess i didn't catch enough sleep the day before and spent quite some time getting stacia to wake up for school at 5.15am. i could hear the maid hovering around our beds for like 10minutes.. and i did nudge stacia, but she just didn't want to wake up. i figured she wouldn't have enough time to bathe so i just let her sleep abit more while i let my head rest in the comfort of my pillow. yes, the maid was still hovering around us...

sometimes you can't really blame stacia for getting irritated at her, the way maritus calls her..
"stacia... stacia... time to wake up stacia..."
and this sentence is repeated continuously for like the whole time she's hoverin above us.

i mean, there's no urgency or sense of importance. its pure irritance, like a fly buzzing in your ear and refusing to go away and leave you alone. get my drift?

so after another 5mins, i checked the clock again an did something the maid would never do. i snatched stacia's blanket and smacked her backside once. not hard of course, but loud enough.. and told her "its 5.30am, get changed and have breakfast. you don't want to miss the bus right?"

and she obediently got up the bed. :)

i think the maid was pretty stunned and she quickly went out to prepare for a hasty shower.. but my niece didn't follow. so i got up and went to help her get changed instead. making primary school conversations as i was doing so.

me: oh, this is your p.e. uniform?
stacia: yea, i got p.e. today, there! can see my timetable!
me: *walks to see timetable* ooh.. so late ah..
(my mom also wakes up and tells the maid stacia can bathe when she comes back)
stacia: ya, and actually my recess is late one, the time they put there is wrong
me: ooh.. okay.. ah, can you eat on the bus?
stacia: no
me: then you better eat your breakfast now
stacia: *stares at the bread*

and it took me awhile to realise whats wrong with the bread. the maid forgot to cut off the skin of the bread. i was too tired to tell the maid, and my mom already went for the scissors. while my mum "taught" the maid again, stacia started eating.

me: you can eat on your own and catch the bus right?
stacia: *nods*
me: good girl.. yi yi go back to bed ok?
stacia: *nods*

and i jumped back to bed. but it didn't end there. 5 minutes later, her father came in.

me: whats wrong?
jerry: she lost her wallet
me: argh.. *gets up and joins search party for small pink wallet*

but we couldn't find it. reminded the father that its 6am and asked him to pass her some money. think my mom was about to give her some too. but i never saw how much she got. and stacia was telling me she had $7.50 in her wallet. gawd, thats like way more than me when i was primary 2 can!? i had $2 a day and the most i could save was a few cents a day.. which i would spend buying more junk food or sweets at the mama shop downstairs.

if there's anything worse than little sleep, its disturbed little sleep. =/

at least i could sleep till noon rather peacefully... though i dread going back to IMM. we spent about 7hours just walking around on level 3 and bought just 2 heaters for the bathroom!! i think i pity myself more than the sales people trying to sell us the airconditioners, sinks, taps, toilet accessories and gas cookers. @_@

moving and rennovating the house is a very tiring chore......

the plan was to play games, drink and countdown to the new year at yiling's place.

but i felt too unwell after the dinner.. and i went home with alex.

and then he left.. perhaps i have neglected him again.. and i ended up in bed, by the window.. listening to the crowds counting down from hong kah cc.. again i partially wished i was among the celebration, yet i really felt too sick to get up and about anymore.

surprised that steve was online.. but its all good.. learned a new game :D
dota in the afternoon doesn't count.

and in audi, i'm finally married!! hahaha, like so suaku... now.. all that's left, is my poor tamagochi... i hope fuyui finds a pretty wife and give birth to a girl!!! too many guy tama's about luh..

tmr's first day of school for stacia.. gonna wakeup at 5.15am and make sure she doesn't miss the school bus. at least the maid is also worried and took the initiative to ask my sis to set the alarm for her to 4.30am. if stacia misses the school bus i think my sis will really burst a blood vessel... *touch wood*

also worried that i'll spread all my bacteria around the house. already my sis n dad are starting to cough. eeps...

oh and before i forget, here's 2 new year resolutions!
1) to sleep early (i've missed too much beauty sleep.. shan't sleep past 2am!)
2) to finish reading the book i lent amos "The purpose driven life"

perhaps there'll be more to come, but thats all... for now.

kyasarin
a simple girl with a complex mind. someone that worries too much about all things valid and invalid. foodie, japie, cutie & alcoholic. nuff said.
my birthday falls on 28th of june! :)


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