Wednesday, November 14, 2007 @10:27 AM
no mood for study
i've got like.. 101 reasons for not studying. exams? say goodbye...
before i forget, mental note to self:
download audi, us version. (they got english songs!)
pick up flyff again (about time)
play storymode in audi sea (can't wait!!)
pray for grandchase beta (if they don't get delayed again)
play ro.. (maybe explore thantos tower)
watch anime!!! (got a list of series in mind alr)
do i have that much time? gosh... 3 days more to freedom~
Sunday, November 11, 2007 @11:18 AM
exams starts
it had been quite a productive night. though i still have 30% to go.. gotta finish by today!
but really.. i have the urge to watch crunchyroll and play auditionsea now. its even stronger than my hunger for food. don't feel hungry much even though i haven't eaten... stressed.
and feeling emo again.
"Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)"by Craig David
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(I wanna know)I'm sick and tired of this silly game
(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.
[Chorus]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state (in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrongI just don't love you no more.
[Chorus]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.
[Chorus]
Friday, November 09, 2007 @8:49 PM
time
like.. omg la, another unconstructive day have passed.
its saturday tomorrow... *feels really stressed now*. have even stronger urge to play audi... argh!! can you believe it, in less than 2 weeks, my exams will be all over! can you? i can't!
omg omg omg. *panicking*
hui min's coming over to study with me tomorrow, i'm glad cos maybe she'll keep me less distracted. really need to concentrate... and we plan not to sleep. we can do it!! we have to. x_x
god bless us.
Wednesday, November 07, 2007 @9:45 PM
rainy day
the weather turned rather cold today. rained non stop and it felt like winter's back. at least it wasn't hot, and i manage to do quite a bit of studying.. not alot, but compared to the rest of the days before that.. it was real progress! if only i studied this hard consistently.... ha...
kinda got stuck on the law of negligence, courts and case law.. so i moved on to study leisure and tourism behaviour first. about 1 quarter done.. hopefully i can finish half by tonight?
pray that tomorrow's weather will be this good too~ the only downside, is the internet connection. then again, it keeps me from playing games.. haa....
oh, changed the band aid on my finger and boy does it look gross. really yuck. and with my current band aid, water seem to have a tendency to seep in. so painful :(
and i'm starting to watch files of young kindaichi on crunchyroll!! domoto tsuyoshi is so cute!!!! *swoons* even though he's fatter now, i still think he's cute... =x
Tuesday, November 06, 2007 @11:34 AM
a cut
yesterday, while preparing dinnner, i got a cut while opening a can of beans. you know, i've always had this hidden fear with opening canned food. how those sharp edges would slice the whole finger off, or it'll fly out and slice someone else, hit the eye and cause the eyeballs to bleed, and etc etc...
its really scary ya know? so anyway, i was having difficulty opening the bloody can, and next thing i knew after a hard yank, it came off! just that it was so fast, it also gave my finger a deep cut. i didn't even have to squeeze blood out.. they just kept flowing and flowing. and for 10 secs, i stood there, stunned..
and then i started thinking like.. "shit!! what happens when you cut a blood vessel!?!?" there was alot of blood oozing out as i washed my finger under the tap. i started to feel dizzy. which was even more crazy since the cut might be alittle deep, but it was definately small.. and i was dizzy!?
thankfully, a number of my housemates were around the livingroom, having their own dinner. all i had to do, was scream for help and medical treatment. ha... ash gave me tissue and went to get antiseptic cream (kelsey had this wierd ottle of also antiseptic stuff, apparently its what they used in the hopital but i rejected it when i heard ash say it stings), mel took a band aid, and i don't remember much during that time, cos things were starting to go real blurry and fuzzy. even the noise level seem small. apparently, i was about to faint. tou and mel kept talking to me. asking me questions.. and chew.. i think he asked wierder questions.. and suba gave me juice.. of which the sugar kept me awake but the coldness of the drink gave me very bad cramps.
then i realised i haven't eaten much the whole day. its day one of my period. so... technically, i did lose alot of blood!!!! no wonder i was about to faint.
all in all, i was saved. :) though i think my cut has started to swell. there seems to be a lump but i'm not brave enough to remove the band aid and check it out. maybe its just healing...
Monday, November 05, 2007 @11:42 AM
the talking cat
there is no beauty in uncertainty.
i'm always so unsure of myself, its sad... tears fall and i wipe, but nothing is ever solved. perhaps everything is just in my head. with the melodrama effect caused by pms, jay chou's new album.. and there you have me - a strange emotional girl.
for 8 days i've been stuck with the 1st topic of law. the australian legal system.. the relationship between law, justice and morality. the rule of law. the doctrine of separation of powers and the power sharing between state government and federal government. needless to say, nothing is going into my head. i have no memory space =/
and i'm hoping that just by saying these topics, it'll help me remember. they say the more you talk about it, the better what... right? cos it refreshes your memory.. its supposed to anyway.
jay chou's so talented... sigh, want to go for his concert and see him but don't want to be swarmed over by the crowds. i can safely say, there must be hundreds of girls that will go crazy.. its scary enough to see some chasing after idols. to have thousands gathered in the same location would be pure chaos. yes, i'm scared..
so yes, i'll just have his new album play on repeat mode till i get sick of it... should be able to last a week or 2, till exams are over? mm.. got to get back to the books...
@12:26 AM
rainbow
i've been listening to jay chou's new album, thanks to jun xian who downloaded it off somewhere and passed it to ash. there's a couple of songs that are pretty good too.. but what really struck a cord is the song "cai hong"... listening to the song is one thing, watching the mtv makes your heart ache further.
been listening to the same song over and over for really long now. and of all times, i don't know why it has to be now. my heart hurts... no idea why i'm feeling so emo..
i got to start studying. swotvac a.k.a studyweek is over and i barely started any reading. i've got to stay away from games. god i pray for discipline.
and comfort to the heart. please...
Sunday, November 04, 2007 @11:29 AM
slight depression
haven't been blogging much. just gaming and gaming and gaming.
to that, i hope my sis lost my blog address and never sees this post. aiks...
yea, kinda depressed lately. "break up" seems to keep flashing in my head. like, argh!!! sometimes i'm just so irritated by alex. its always the same few things. the same habits. or is it just me? if its me, all the more it should mean we're not meant for each other what. right?
i'm not trying to make things work? i have tried. and i'm sick of it! dammit!! feel so fcuked. like, wth? why must these clog up my mind when exams are just a stone throw away!? its soo not helping. stupid hormones. ahhh!!!!!
sigh.
but i did get a better grade on one of my previous assignment. complaining to the course coordinator helped. that tutor was another fcuked up arse. i only hope he marks properly for the 2nd assignment... and award class participation with his conscience. there are people who only showed up for 2 tutorials. (see how lousy a tutor he is? even the other ang mohs can't be bothered with him) so yea...
man i have never used so much vulgarities on my blog before. i am seriously not very normal lately. bleah.