yea rite.. since when could i ever keep my attention span..? lolz
anyways, i'm losing alot of earrings!! argh, why do they keep going missing? the worse thing is, i don't lose 2, but 1 side of my earrings every time!! its like, what am i supposed to do with the other side anyway? i need to keep it, which takes space and i don't wear it out anymore again.
i need to buy more.
that like my only solution. right? then maybe there's this slim chance that i could fit it together with another design and not make it look awful. like the shop at bugis selling earring from japan. it comes in 3 earrings per set (i know, like its designed for me right!? cos i got 3 earholes) and all 3 earrings are different yet they all compliment each other. best thing is, they really do look very nice! and of course, they also cost alot. like, $33 to $48 per set. thats like over $11 for each piece of earring.
damn overpriced!! i wish they had a sale or something.. or if it's $10 a set i might convince myself that its worth it...
anyways, i also want to complain.. whats wrong with the people taking trains these days!? if you're blind and can't see the thick yellow indicators for you to stand back to let people alight then fine. stand closer. but you don't stand smack in the middle and block the people inside from moving out right!? thats just being purely idiotic no? the more you block people, that longer they take to go out, the harder you take to go in and the more time the whole process takes!
i even see the ang mohs doing the same now. where's all the courtesy!?? the brains!? its just so fustrating to see this over and over again every morning at the train station. i would have taken the bus had i not been late...
sigh, feeling sleepy again now. thinking of buying my fossil watch later at tangs. *spirits lifted* payday is just 5 days away and counting.. i am soo ready to blow half of it away with the normal $400 to my mom, and maybe spending $300 on a creative vision m mp3 player. *excites!*
its kinda wierd adjusting to my jacket. since my white cardigan was so much thinner, i kind of forget that fact and in the rush of stripping my jacket after i get off the bus, i brought upon myself cold chills.
is it still hungry ghost festival?
i'm having a small craving for mooncakes already.. =(
my sweet tooth is acting up. you don't wanna know what i'm thinking.. lol
i need to find motivation to work. hmm..
still got tonnes to do.. sianz! which then turns to stress!! when its so piled up.
dunno how i've gone to be so forgetful.. slept early the previous night and for once after so many weekdays, i felt recharged! but i still forgot to bring out my handphone. sigh.
its definately heditary from my father.. anyways.. i did alot of shopping yesterday! yay~ i overslept and instead of alighting at bedok, i ended up in tampines. so i was thinking.. why not take a look? so i walked into tm and woah.. got big sale.
upon closer inspection, its converse goodies! ok, so maybe i'm not exactly a huge basketball fan, but i've always loved their brand name and some selected designs that are always overpriced.
to cut the long story short, here are my new prized pozesions!
1. 2 cute Tees for $20 (original price: $54.80)
2. 1 converse jacket $39.90 (original price: $69.90)
3. 3 comics $19.50 (i actually only wanted 1...)
4. 1 ro installation cd $2.50 (need to patch so must buy...)
so there.. spent over $80.. but i saved myself over $60!! good deal right... i'm soo in love with my jacket!! thank god i didn't buy the one at samuel & kevin's. the converse design is much nicer, and yea, this is quality stuff!! XD
i'm just worried i can't last till pay day... must persevere!!!
i want a jacket. a soft one.. not those smooth plastic looking or bulky ones.. and i've finally finally decided! i want a fossil watch. probably get it in the next few days.. yay =)
sounds like someone is buying for me? lol, actually i'm paying myself. i've brought shopping to a whole new level. not physically shopping, not window shopping.. but just imagining what i'll be shopping is enough to make me happy and high. XD
lol, i'm soo moodless to work right now. sigh.
got alot of things to do man... time for techno.
arghz. i'm pissed. stupid manager that sit only just behind me pissed me off.
like, she just came by, ask me if i'm doing one of those events and i'm like, "i'm just revising them now.." then, being a little more informative cos she had that i don't really know what you're talking about look on her face, i showed her a sample of the end product to let her see, and explained that the previous one was in a booklet and used alot of paper when actually if you readjust it, it can fit 1 piece of paper.
she went like "is it? the original is one piece of paper what"
then, i said no it isn't and bent to a side to retrieve the original, and just before i took it out, she left saying "sometimes if its all cluttered up people can't see a thing"
i'm like, wtf?
1. you're a manager and you don't even have proper manners.
2. are you also BLIND?? it is so obvious to the naked eye that there was still SO much space in MY 1 blardy piece of paper!
3. just b'coz u're a manager doesn't give you the right to assume what i'm doing. you might want to be an ass, but please don't make me be an ass along with you.
4. who's my boss? i remember he's male and his name is Stephen. who are you???
i hate that attitidue. someone should smack her! i felt not only insulted, but the person she probably was defending was also insulted by her lor! he doesn't know that, but i feel so. why?
cos by her stupid remark, she OBVIOUSLY don't know how much PAPER was wasted because of her stupidity. she don't know how much TIME was wasted by the person she was defending on trying to fulfil her 'wish' to do things her way.
any o' how, its not her problem anymore! it's my department's baby now. i do what i do because i have many more managers to answer to! if this product gets sold well, if more sales come in, i definately cannot cope by myself! which is why, i. need. to. revise. things. to. increase. efficiency!! so butt out and please spare a thought for others you inconsiderate bitch.
thank you very much.
extremely tired man... play too much ps2.. too much auditionsea...
i miss all-day-slacking-at-home lifestyle. ahhhh!!!
maybe its just the monday blues
| Your Five Factor Personality Profile |
 Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations. A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you. You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue. |
this test is pretty true! hmm...
it occurred to me that its seems... that everytime i take the train, i meet more than 100 people. maybe even 200.. 300? just look at the numbers passing me by. all different, and i can never remember any.. today it seems like i'm seeing more ang mohs everywhere. they really like singapore that much huh.. wonder how i'd be like when i go to australia.
i feel quite insignificant.
whateva.
yeah, i'm freezing to death in my office.. i don't know if someone turned the temperature of the place lower, or if it's cos the rest of my department is off in a meeting, leaving me here to absorb all the cold air.
if only i bought that jacket i saw at samuel & kevin's.. there was a 30% discount! should have bought right... now dunno if the sale is still on anot... then i don't have to be afraid i'd stain my favourite white cardigan.. i'm still so in love with it.. alex bought it for me as an early b'dae prezzie.. along with some pants, but this is still my fav.. cos the sleeves are longer than my arms, and the design is so simple and nice!
neways, tomorrow is national day!! yea, happy early birthday to singapore and happy 1 year aniversary to me and alex.. how time flies ah.. 1 year already.. and today, on the eve, i'm still like a sulking baby, angry over nothing, but just sulking whenever he calls. but i dunno how to kick the habit? is it even called a habit? i'm perfectly fine to everyone else.. still smiling.. chatting.. suaning.. *shrugs* if i were an outsider, i'd sympathise and my empathy goes out to alex. i hope i made the correct usage of vocab.
oh yea, and i had the strangest dream today.. the whole content was like so vivid in my head lah, but with my memory, of course by now i forget like 99% already.. all i can remember was gunfire, feeling terrified, jumping on a motorcycle, being driven away from bullies... thats about it. there was actually a storyline one!!
sigh. going to get changed, then maybe go down to the beach for a walk before the birthday event starts. that girl is so lucky. not to mention rich huh. you better not give me any trouble. hmph. there goes the fireworks at marina bay lah.
sad.
very full.. very sleepy..
thats what lunch always does to me..
wah seh.. sit at the new place really lose all privacy.. cannot msn, cannot blog.. but i still do it anywayz.. cross my fingers, but i think its just another matter of time before someone complains =x
sigh. its barely a week.. i'm growing broke again..
doesn't help that alex is poorer than me.
doesn't help even more when alex borrows money from me.
i've never seen so much money fly away, so fast, right under my nose before.
double sigh.
thus concluded. i shall stay home and play more ps2. why? cos time flies faster, and no money is spent.
nuff said.
am listening to dark angel, apparently a korean music cd. and i thought it was chinese. i think the best was still listening to techno from paul van dyk. with techno i caould immerse in it, lose track of time and work. but this cd is making me stone..
sigh, perhaps i'm still affected by what happened in the morning. no one is perfect. and dispite what i said might have had a tint of truth in it, i didn't mean to say it to prove a point. i was expecting a retort. but it didn't come? perhaps my tone was wrong and it was somehow taken seriously. then what always follows to happen is this barrier that forms between us.
perhaps we both have very high egos. and usually in this situation we both let time hurt us till one side can't take it no more, and then we 'patch up'. usually, the person who does that is you huh? typical me probably can't seem to care less..
how much more can i deny that thats not true? how many times must i inflict the hurt on others and myself? i feel so guilty. its some kind of vicious cycle. i thank god for giving me the chance to die young if i do. cos too many times have i caused pain to myself. too many times have i intentionally/unintentionally done so to others.
is this why my chest pain have returned? i wonder when i'll be able to die. think i'll just not go for the hospital appointment. i'll never step into a hospital. never stay in there. how else will i be able to enjoy my monday tv doctor dramas? it reminds me of verna too..
i thank the people out there who love me. i'm sorry i don't know how to return the affection. kind of depressed now, but who'll notice? haha, its so easy to smile it away at work.
now i've got this sudden craving for honey glazed pork ribs. something i used to buy and treat myself when i'm all alone. thats like, at least 7 years ago when i was still living in the west. yea, perhaps i'm better of living alone.
this is a depressing entry. a depressing blog.
i need sleep.
i was supposed to ration my money. i drew out $20 yesterday and i told myself that this sum will last me till next week.
but after dinner (fishball noodles) yesterday, and lunch today (ate fishball noodles again) there's only one $2 note left. well, plus a few change...
did i mention how expensive a lolly pop actually cost at the 7-eleven on Sentosa? Its $0.60! I could have gotten it at half the price buying in bulk at my neighbourhood stall. goodness!
i'm getting this sudden contemplation of reality, that alex has, or should i say is coming into contact with the internet on a much.. i don't know how to put it =/
that aside, i better rush for my meeting first.