was back from new zealand not too long ago and i'm flying off to cairns tomorrow! i can only pray for good weather... and that i pass all my course modules when results are released at 9am tomorrow. oh the suspense...
well nz was pretty fun. loads happened and i just can't pin everything down. i think personally the biggest highlight would have still been my solo stunt of bungying at auckland harbour bridge.
all i can say.. is that its really darn high. i was freaked out. scared shyt. hallucinating that i'm going to die. and not to forget, worried that the instructor was gonna push me.
and then i leaped. i really thought i was going to die. o_o
yep thats me jumping and screaming my lungs out. i can't believe i made it. and there was even a boat below watching me and making my pic look nice. lol.
yay, can't believe exams are finally over, school life has ended!!! (unless touchwood i fail a course) and in no time i'll be back in singapore looking for a job... actually, i've already started looking. kiasu hor? sigh, economy is bad man... bo bian T_T
well that aside, holidaying first! am so excited that i'm flying to new zealand in just a few hours later~ i think i underpacked but well... more reasons to shop i guess! hahaha.. am actually not armed with alot of cash but i really hope i can find something nice to buy as a souvenir =3 and then, have extra to buy home too.. no guarentee hor!
ahha, service today was good. am glad i went to church today despite only having barely 5 hours of sleep, and despite the ultra hot weather. morning service is really indescribably different. just feel so... left out somehow. so many unfamiliar faces and clicks on their own, there's just no room as i stand aside and occupy myself with my own thoughts.
o wells, pray for good weather and a safe trip, and just before i go, a replied tag! xD
Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag the people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all
1) Have you given your first kiss away? - *stares at the question* No.
2) Spoilt? - not really, but i'd like to be~ =)
3) Where is the place that you want to go the most? - Tokyo!
4) If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be? - to die peacefully..
5) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? - depends on the rain? it'd be nice to see one, but it just doesn't happen all the time.
6) Who/What are you afraid to lose the most now? - my heart.
7) If you win $1 million, what would you do? - invest some, spend some, donate some.
8) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? - dunno...
9) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you. - reliable, trustworthy and helpful. we're like childhood friends tho we don't spend a great deal of time together as much as i'd like to.. still i love u for the way u are =) to many more years for friendship~
10) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? - someone who loves god, is faithful, dedicated, capable and loving. someone i can talk to and makes me comfortable. someone i trust my life with. is there such a person? lol
11) Which type of person do you hate the most? - inconsiderate and pretentious people
12) Name someone you have always wanted to have dinner with but never gotten the chance to. - my sis
13) If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet? - tell me. just tell me.
14) What do you think is the most important thing in your life? - the people around me. which ironically, deals the most hurtful of experiences.
15) Are you a shopaholic or not? - YES! well, if i have the $$!
16) If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change? - to be more consistent & procrastinate less.
17) What do you usually do at home? - in summary, slack. haha
18) Any weird habits or quirks? - some say i'm a mood spoiler. too lame i guess? haha
19) How do you think the person who tagged you can change to be a better person? - just be yourself and do the things you love =)
20) If you could be a villian, what sort of villian will you be? - hmm, i guess if only i was a genius, i'd be the type of villian thats too smart for my own good.
Tagged: None
i've learnt that when theres no expectations, you suffer no disappointments. so i shan't tag lest no one replies.
i am so not in the flow now. leisure definition crap. basically, bull/chim stuff depending on how u wanna see it. but trust me, you don't wanna know the name of the freaking guy that came up with the word 'flow'.
-_-
suddenly miss having the word 'fairy' in my nickname. somehow recently more than one person still addressed me with a fairy in front of my name... seeing it brought back old memories of how i used to game non-stop sia.. logic of play so much = no time to eat = no eat = die & become fairy. or better known in chinese as "chen xian".
ahha.. can't remember when was the last time i played online games...
no mood to study sia... exams in another couple of days and i still don't feel prepared. especially my last paper. super pain in the ass.
argh!!
its a painful 3 days of school left...
ahh, haven't exactly been studying very hard.. feeling alil guilty and worried, but... really no drive leh..
3 more papers in just 1 week. how in the world am i going to cover everything? @_@ its just not possible. ahhh~ it just feels like exams is over already.. i just can't wait to go on holiday T_T
sigh, but at the same time, there's this nostalgic feeling... i'll miss uq. i'll really really miss my carefree life as i go back and be the filial daughter, then join the rat race to pay my debts to the bank and my parents. its like, thats it? is that how my life is going to end and remain for the rest of my remaining days?
it was like my childhood dream of being able to find a nice guy and settle down. have a simple life and just be content with what i have, live life as it is and be responsible. sounds rather boring no? yeah, i'm a boring person.
but yet at the same time i don't wannna settle down and just live with that. i guess i would have settled with alex if i was really like that. and i'm horrified with hospitals. how am i going to have kids? ahhaha... well, when the time comes for it i'm sure i'll work it out. i always do eh?
i'm pretty scared of heights but i'm still pushing myself to go bungy even if i gotta do it alone. and then there's skydiving. it scares the crap out of me visualising it. so whatever, just book and such, think about the consequences later.
so yeah. i thought i would be simple and ordinary, and to a certain extent, i am. but i'm somehow always pushing myself for something. to do something, to want a change. to travel, to explore, to challenge. i think thats all that can make life alil more exciting.
i don't foresee myself being able to get out of the rat race.. but at least, i wanna make my race as enjoyable as it can be. perhaps the thought of loneliness glooms, but i just keep reminding myself that it'll be okay and things will work out somehow.
lately the thought of alex do pop into my head. reminisces of the past brings back memories and after all that's happened, i've been struggling with myself whether i should give him a call and apoogize for all that has happened. not to get back together, but to apologize for the hurt i've caused him. although i've been hurt too, but it really didn't give me the right to hurt him back. to that, i guess i got to apologize to more guys. for any unintentional hurt and feelings i couldn't reciprocate...
truly. ignorance is bliss. if i don't know anything, i don't have to care about anything, no? and to anyone who even knows about me and alex, please slap me if i seem to be considering him. i shouldn't and cannot get back with him. thanks to my goldfish memory, i can't remember all the things and reasons why we broke up. why i tried so hard and caused so much pain to cut the ties.
but this is the end result and i don't want all those feelings to be in vain. i don't want history to repeat itself. which happens to happen to me quite often =/
alrite, i really should get down to study...
you know you're short when the first thing you see when you turn around is the chest of someone else.
you also know you're short when you empty your purse and realize you're 5 cents short to buying that yummilicious muffin at the cashier.
and... if someone offers that 5 cents from behind, you'll wish you were shorter.
literally.
ahha... financial management paper tomorrow.
doomed. :(