Wednesday, March 29, 2006 @5:10 PM
inspired
i shall renew my passion for writing. maybe it'll keep my mind sharp too.
got to thank wanting.. for the short writing that i guess must have gotten her nominated as one of the nominees for most creative NUS blog writers. i do hope she wins. here's the quote..
"i believe in having passion in whatever i do, as long as i've set about doing it. i apply this to web design, to travelling solo, to doing anything i have set my heart on. but a person's strong point always proves to be a double-edged sword. such passion, if applied to the wrong places, may inadvertently turn into a blind, pointless pursue of things that may not even count. it takes courage to know when to stop doing something you so believe in. it takes courage to stop doing the very thing you have such passion for."
and i think its so right. maybe thats why i have lost my direction in life. i feel rather honoured getting a job offer in sentosa, but at the same time i don't know whether i should take it or not. it just bothered me alittle.. worried i guess, that i might not be able to come back after finishing uni. ah kim said that there's alot of politics, which i might not feel cos of my current level. i'm slowly beginning to understand what it meant now. will i really be able to fit in? life is so full of possibilities.
i can't wait to go home later to play ro. a marriage awaits! i'm getting to appreciate much more simple things by stopping myself to think too far.
its about time i picked up the book frederick bought for me. sigh, i do miss him.
@9:03 AM
klutzy
been rather careless lately, making small mistakes here and there.. ahh.. i have this feeling that i need to grow up. or something.. at least.
can't put my finger to it..
the happiest thing that happened lately...
my internet is fixed by dear kelly. amen amen!
cecelia saw i looked skinner. whee~~
alex have been rather nice & sweet. :)
been having fresh breakfast despite my unhealthy cup-noodles lunch diet
gaming in ro is getting addictive..
though i still super worried about lending my acct to alex's brother..
argh..
well, i shall just try to dwell on these whilst concentrating on my work again..
Monday, March 20, 2006 @2:51 PM
meaningful song... to me
Almost here by Delta Goodrem & Brian McFadden
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i?d left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
its funny how both me and azlin feel for this song. kind of remind us about our past i guess. we're playing it over and over till we get sick of it. lol
sigh. funny how i still feel poor after getting my pay just yesterday. shall await my next one 2 weeks later. oh let the time pass sooner >.<
thank you god for yesterday. please restore my internet connection too. amen.
Thursday, March 09, 2006 @11:21 AM
fuzzy
yesterday had been a weird day. alot of wierd things i saw.. but somehow, i could only remember the one legged bird.
it's d 7th month annivasary of my relationship! my, so long yet so short.. i'm still feeling vague about it sometimes. like one moment i think i can see us still being together in the future. next moment it seems somewhat impossible and it might only just be a matter of time.
even though we have been through so much.. i don't know if it matters. i've come to understand alittle more about myself, yet come to much more voids in this relationship.
in conclusion, i figured theres no point pondering about it anyway. just take things as they come for now...
sigh.. where is my pay? need money to buy so many things..
Friday, March 03, 2006 @3:02 PM
time and time again
i miss melia, kelly, mossie.. i miss having big hugs, the times when every problem in life feels like nothing but just a miniscule atom. with nothing to worry about.
something doesn't feel right, or maybe something is wrong with me again? shrug..
been planning my trip to redang with denise. kinda expect it to be fun, and i'm really looking forward to going overseas independently. well, its just malaysia, across one causeway.. but still its somewhere really foreign to me. especially feels so since i don't understand malay for nuts, and seeing too many malays scares me. no, i'm not racist, just not accustomed to seeing a different race surrounding me.
i wonder how is chris like now. i wonder if i'll get to meet boa too. ulat and gang.. it'll be so nice and fun to be able to meet them all. then comes alex. a comfort for company, but a hard headed guy i don't know whether i can convince to lemme meet up with all of them. suddenly an image of my mother flashes past. his mindset is really like my mom. hmm.. thats pretty scary. kinda like an unborn nightmare. ok, maybe i'm just taking it too hard.
been rather stressed lately. not really with a heavy workload, but prolly its just the lack of sleep. long hours of work, plus long hours of travelling to and fro to work, spending time with alex, and gaming as much as i can with whatever time i have left. time is like so short, its not enough for me..
i want more time for myself again. to pamper myself, go get a nice haircut, mani and pedi's, buy new clothes, new shoes, and most importantly, spend the whole day watching tv, anime or just plain catching up on sleep... ahh...
i'm craving for a beautiful love song.