Tuesday, June 14, 2005 @5:26 PM
lala land
haha! i've never met such a cute program in my mails. no theres no relation to the title and what happened in the office.
here's the reply i got when i typed a wrong mail add.
Hi. This is the qmail-send program at server340.com.
I'm afraid I wasn't able to deliver your message to the following addresses.
This is a permanent error; I've given up. Sorry it didn't work out.
lols.
work is super busy today, and for the first time, i felt like i almost couldn't cope!
Sunday, June 12, 2005 @9:31 PM
sensation
as the question that has been plaguing me for weeks did the same to me again today, i still wonder why i have no answer as i stood in the train on my way to meet steve. staring at the scenary didn't help like i knew it wouldn't, and soon i arrived at my station... throwing my thoughts back, i thought about how to get to amos's house from the mrt with steve.. and boy was the weather hot.
stayed there and enjoyed great iced lemon tea, then saw amelia and amanda through the web cam. could tell how much they miss each other... and at that moment, i wish i had more siblings to share my life with too. though i didn't do much, i just enjoy spending time with them, as they fixed the dvd hardware, and testing steve's new mouse. just watching amos play dota with it, even though its the first time i ever saw that game being played, is also nice.. like the time i was young, i used to watch my cousin as he played his game. compared to ro, dota game is so, so fast, i know my reflexes will never make it. i'd probably need a personal tutor who won't scream at me if i really were to learn. haa..
then as time flew, its so funny to see the way amos panic around the house, thinking what he forgot, recounting what he needs, and double checking if all was in place. and finally, after being probably an hour late, we took a cab down where amos dropped us off at tampines central, while he chiong to his grandma's house for dinner. i really wish time could pause for us, as i tried to count the number of days till we could all meet up like this again. just spending time together and not being so busy with our own lives.
maybe one day we'll grow up and look back, smiling at the memories like what i'm doing now. thinking how silly we were at the things we've done or used to do. regreting some things, while treasuring the choices made. whatever it is, i still don't know what the future holds for me. though somehow i wish time would fastforward, i'm somehow still having some problem grasping my own life now. i don't know how i'm supposed to manage myself in the years to come, since i know the independence i seek don't seem to be reflected by my current actions as a goal i wish to achieve. but nomatter, live today and die tomorrow.
i need to keep more happy thoughts. i miss amos, amelia and steve already.
Friday, June 10, 2005 @10:27 PM
time
time flies as i work in sentosa. guess its because i enjoy the things i do, and i'm usually so busy, i don't realise how fast time pass. the next thing i know, the day would have been coming to an end and i go home waiting for the next to come.
my blog have been so neglected, probably because it hasn't been reflecting how i've been feeling lately too... but listening to this song really makes me feel better. i just pray things will really get better.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005 @1:47 PM
song after song
Tears of Pearlsby Savage Garden
And we stare each other down like victims in the grind
Probing all the weakness and hurt still left behind and we cry
The tears of pearls
We do it. Oh we do it.
Is love really the tragedy the way you might describe?
Or would a thousand lovers still leave you cold inside?
Make you cry...
These tears of pearls
All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls
Stolen pearl devotions we keep locked away from all the world
Your kisses are like pearls, so different and so rare
But anger stole the jewels away and love has left you bare,
Made you cry...
These tears of pearls
Well I could be the tired joker pour my heart to get you in
Sacrifice my happiness just so I could win
Maybe cry...
These tears of pearls
All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls
Stolen pearls devotions we keep locked away from all the world
We twist and turn where angles burn
Like fallen soilders we will learn
That once forgotten, twice removed
Love will be the death...
The death of you
Sunday, June 05, 2005 @10:14 PM
love this song
jesusit is you, who came
in the form of a man
to identify with the ones
that you've formed with your hand
and i know, it is you
who gave your life for me
there will be no other one
who will die for me
your name is wonderful, counselor
the prince of peace
the mighty god
the everlasting father
you are alpha
and omega
the beginning and the end
your name o lord is
jesus